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Beyoncé
Nicki has been crying all morning & every time I ask her what's wrong, she'll tell me to leave her alone. I heard Kinsley crying so I went in her room & picked her up, but she didn't stop. Great now they both crying. I sighed & bring Kinsley to Nicki. "She won't stop crying." I said as she mumbled something before reaching her arms out for her.

She automatically stopped crying & I chuckled a little. "Are you okay?" I asked as she nodded. "Yeah why?" She asked. "Well bc you did just cry yourself to sleep." I said. "Look at the date." She said as I frowned. "It's may 6." I said as she nodded. "Exactly." She said as I just shrugged. "What's so special about today?" I asked.

Nicki
Today is the day of Kinsley's father birthday. I know I shouldn't be crying, but I mean the pain is still there. If he were still here, I would be riding him & telling him Happy Birthday but no. I love Beyoncé, but I still have some healing to do.

"Today is meek birthday." I said as she just nodded. "Oh." She said in a sorriness voice that almost sounded like forgiveness. "What?" I asked. "Nothing.." she said as I sat up. By now Kinsley had went back to sleep so I eased my way to the edge of the bed. "Don't do that baby, tell me what's wrong." I said. "I'd rather talk somewhere else so I don't wake kinsley." She said as I nodded.

We went downstairs to the living room & I laid on the couch in my stomach. "Are you dumb?" She asked as I frowned. "Umm no??" I questioned. "You're pregnant & you're always doing that stupid ass bullshit. Sit the fuck up." She said as I laughed a little before sitting up. "It's not that serious. If I was hurting them, im pretty sure the doctor would've told me the other day. I do this every other day, it's comfortable for me." I said.

"Yeah but it's not about you." She said. "Okay Beyonce. What did you want tho?" I asked. "Well seems like you're not over your ex getting killed, so ima need for you to heal before we take this relationship any further." She said as I laughed hard. "Girl, ofc im not over it. You wouldn't be either. But let's be real. We're expecting okay. Not 1 but 2 children & you talking ab before we take our relationship any further. So what you saying is, you don't wanna marry your pregnant girlfriend bc she's not over someone who was once the love of her life. Someone who got killed RIGHT IN FRONT OF THEM?? Yeah come at me when you get your 5 senses together." I said as she just shook her head.

Beyoncé
I hear what she's saying, but she not hearing what I'm saying. "Don't try to twist my words Nicki. Every other day you have a different episode & when I ask you what's wrong. It's always about Meek. I don't know the hurt & I don't wanna ever have to experience it. But all I'm saying is, maybe you need therapy to help you get over this. Cause im pretty sure this is gonna make you have postpartum depression & that scares me. I'm not being mean, or trying to make you feel any type of way but I'm just scared Nic. I want us to work. I want to marry you. I didn't put them kids in you for no reason. You're the love of my life k& I wanna do whatever to help you & our relationship." I said as she sighed.

"I'm scared too Bey. I don't know about therapy tho. Is it really that bad?" She asked as I saw tears running down her face. "It is. I'm not trying to make you do this but look at Kinsley for example. She's getting older & she's super smart. She's eventually gonna catch on as well." I said as she nodded. "I feel like you don't wanna be with me anymore. Bc all I do is talk about meek & shit. But if it were you, I'd be by your side, helping you. Instead you get annoyed by me. You knew what it was before you even stopped in that alley. You could've left me the fuck alone. Respectfully." She said getting up as I tried to follow her.

"Wait where are you going?" I asked as she started packing a bag. "I'm going to stay with Lauren for a few. Thank you for getting me pregnant with twins. That's the best thing you've done. I love you, but I would rather be alone than to be with someone who fake care about my situation. You knew I wasn't stable, yet you still lead me on. Thank you for these months of love. I guess you could say. But most of all, thank you for putting me back on my feet. The twins will always know who you are, but right now, I need time to "heal" as you would say. Goodbye Beyoncé." She said as I sighed.

"I'll leave. You stay here. You don't have to move a single piece of clothing. This is yours. I promise I will leave. You don't have to worry about anything. I'm sorry for everything I did to you. I'm sorry for not being the best girlfriend I could be to you. But I will not give up on you. At the end of the day your still mine." I said as she chuckled. "And your mine too, but I do need to heal. Are you willing to stay with me through my healing journey?" She said as I nodded. "Whatever it takes to have you baby. I can't lose you. I know what I said was harsh & hurtful & I do want to apologize. I can't tell you how to feel when I never experienced a pain like that. I'm sorry baby." I said as she wrapped her arms around me.

"Are you crying?" She asked as I shook my head. "No, real bitches don't cry. I was just malfunctioning for a second." I said as she laughed. "Yeah okay ms girlll. I love you." She said as I lowered my head to her level & kissed her. "I love you more." I said once we pulled away. "After all of that, Kinsley is still sleep." She said as we shared a laughed.