Alyssa 3/4/24
"So when you said that you only loved me was that a lie?" I asked Mari and she looked at me confused. I found out she actually has been cheating on for a while. "What are you talking about?" She asked and I rolled my eyes. She thinks I'm stupid but I'm not that naive. I had a gut feeling and I should've went with that feeling.
"Stop acting like you don't know what I'm talking about, I know you and Maya hooked up!" I said she looked down. "I was gonna tell you but I didn't know how" she explained and I rolled my eyes. "What and that makes you think it's all gonna go away like i would act like it's all good if you the truth?! you instead acted like you didn't know what I was talking about" I said and she was surprised at how mad I was getting.
Mari
I felt a weird feeling in my stomach and I instantly knew it was guilt. Alyssa was really mad and I couldn't tell her to be calm because she has the right to be mad. I should've just never done or at least stop at the first time. The first time it happened it was actually an accident but I guess the rush felt too good.
It felt like a I had the world in my hands and sneaking around gave me so much power. But it didn't, it made me look pathetic. Alyssa was holding back her tears I could tell. She sighed knowing that I was blocking her out. "I'm not gonna waste my time with you" she said then walked away. I was just left there standing in the bathroom.
11/18/20
I watched her laugh at his non funny jokes and I could tell she's forcing it. She's my best friend I know everything about her. I stared at her and she's so sweet and beautiful. He's so fucking boring like she doesn't even need him. She's out of his league. I can admit I am jealous but that's because I want the best for her and it's not him.
Plus I don't need her to get distracted for nationals. She's the captain of our soccer team and she's the best. No one compares to Alyssa she's perfect. Everyday we had practice she would have a red bow in her hair. Just to match our jersey's. She always had a great way of influencing people. But me I uh smoke cigarettes and am the complete opposite of her. My mom is drunk all the time and I'm not perfect.
I'm a looser and I deserve it. The bell rings and I quickly get up. I follow y/n and her stupid boyfriend to the locker room. He tries kissing her but she moves away quickly. Then he walked away with a weird look on his face. "Get ready! Today is going to be different!" Our coach yelled.
Then he left the locker room. The girls started to take their clothes off and y/n did also. I stared from behind my locker but just a bit. Her shirt was off and she had a bright red bra on. I quickly took my clothes off and got into my uniform. Alyssa waited for me. She took my hand and ran out the locker room.
Alyssa 4/26/21
Adam and I were talking about what I did in soccer practice. Sometimes he wants to help me but he's not that good. He tries to learn about soccer but his athletic abilities aren't very great. But at least her tries.
He scooted closer to me and I knew that meant he wanted to kiss me but I quickly got up. I went to the bathroom and I almost threw up. At first I thought there was something wrong with me but it's really just that I don't wanna kiss him. The thought of his spit in my mouth is weird.
But somehow when I picture myself kissing someone it's always someone with a closer connection and feminine energy. I walked out went back in his room. I grabbed my stuff and left. I didn't say anything to him because it was awkward. His mom said bye to me and I said bye then I called Mari to pick me up.
She came in ten minutes. I got in her car and she looked at me a little concerned. "It happened again?" She asked and I nod. "I don't know what's wrong with me" I said she shook her head. "Maybe Adam made you barf from how his arms look like fucking noodles, even you have more muscles than him" she said and I shook my head. "That's not funny" I said.
"Yeah, it is" she said and I looked at her a little. Then I laughed a bit. "Okay, fine, it was" I said she nod while smiling. I looked down towards her hands and I just watched them. They were veiny and she had rings on them. I bit my lip and looked up at her and she was laughing at me. "What the hell got you looking thirsty?" She asked and I shook my head.
"N-nothing" I said she hummed then pulled into my drive way. I got out quickly and went into my house. I never ever felt the way I felt when I looked her hands and I never felt that way with Adam. I think she turned me on. My best friend turned me on?
