It was lecture class today. Lecture class days are so boring. I felt sleepy. As usual my eyes followed him. He seems like following the lecture really well. Then after a while, I saw him fidgeting with his phone. He seems like texting someone.
"Two steps, so close yet so far", I wondered.
*Ting I got a notification.
"---- sends you a message."
"Let's meet after class near the cafeteria."
"While we are discussing. Let's have some food too. I am soo hungry."
What? He was texting me? Suddenly I was in bliss, I don't know why though.
"Sure!" I replied.
"Great!"
I turned off my phone and started paying attention to class. Somehow after that text all my sleepiness disappeared but I still couldn't find myself focusing on the lecture. Little did I know that deep in my heart, I was looking forward to meeting him in the cafeteria.
Sharp 11 am when class ended. He went ahead with his friends. I saw him glancing over my side, smiled and gestured "time" on his wrist. "Thump" My heart thumped. I nodded and immediately looked down and smiled without noticing. I was feeling hot, maybe it's because of the weather but it was cloudy that day.
I waited for a while until everybody left. I don't really like crowds. I am not good around people, so I went at last as always.
I hurriedly packed my things. I really don't know why but I was running, running very fast. It's like I was very eager to meet him. Or maybe I was just hungry. I will never know.
The halls were empty. The clock was ticking. I was running. My heart was beating fast. I don't know if it's because I ran or because I was nervous. It's like everyone could listened my heart beating. All I knew was I wanted to see him.
Suddenly the rain started pouring. I had no umbrella still I ran. The cafeteria really wasn't far away, it didn't really matter. I saw him sitting on the chair, pouring sugar in his tea or maybe coffee, slightly stirring the spoon, adjusting his hair and just admiring the view. My heart thumped again.
I couldn't ignore it. Only a fool denies such things. "I am in love, aren't I? But why? We have neither met for long, neither had a proper interaction, so why? Is it because it's my first time experiencing so I have been mistaking friendship with love? Do I actually just want to be friends with this guy? Practically we are strangers yet why am I feeling such things?" I had many thoughts within just that one moment. I was lost in my thoughts.
Suddenly I heard a voice. That one voice answered all my questions. How I was waiting for his story and post just so I could see him, how I was always glancing to his side and how my eyes were always following him., how my night became good just because he said good night and how still I am just thinking about him.
It was definitely love, at least for me, I don't know how the world defines being in love, but for me, this feeling is love, wanting to see him, wanting to hear him, just being close with him even though I could have a heart attack. Am I being selfish? Maybe being selfish is love.
As I realized my feelings, my mind became clear. "Hey, -----, over here!" I immediately recognized his voice, I looked towards him. As I was walking towards him, the closer I got, the more my heart was beating very fast. A mind can lie but a heart can never. For the first time in my life, I was glad it rained because now he couldn't really hear my heart beating.
