I want you. | Taylor Swift x Female Reader

Chapter 10: we'll be alright

My heart was beating so fast as I stepped into the room. He wasn't there, but she was. I closed the door behind me so no one would disturb us.

My eyes fell on her. It hurted so much seeing her, as she looked up, we made eye contact.

Her soft blue eyes. It felt like coming home. It hurted so much, why did I left her.

Slowly I walked towards her. I needed her. If she don't want to talk it's okay, I mean I hurted her more.

She looked exhausted and tired. Quickly I changed my mind and turend to my seat.

The next three weeks passed.

Me and Taylor hadn't talked.

This three weeks I needed her, my feelings came back, but I was depressed, my grades dropped.

Travis sold my house, I was living with him, after the pregnancy test was positive. He bought a new house for me in Kansas, but before I go he said, that I should talk to Taylor.

Now Iam here, heart pounding, infront of her office.

As I wanted to knock the door opened. There she was, her ocean blue eyes, looking in mine felt like home. My eyes fell on the hoodie. It was the hoodie I gave her after we hooked up.

We looked at each other for 5 minutes, the silence was so loud. It felt like the morning I broke up with her. Slowmotion, standing there, her red lipstick.

"Taylor..." my voice was barely above a whisper. "Can we talk?" She looked so exhausted, dark circles under her eyes, they were also teary.

She took my hand wordlessly, leading me in her office. Her touch, made my heart jump, I missed it so much. "Take a seat Baby- uhm Y/N Iam sorry", how bad I wanted her to call me Babygirl again.

As I had placed myself on the chair, I looked at her. She was so pretty even though she looked exhausted.

"Iam uhm I-" I stumbled, but her presence was making me so nervous.

"If you came here to stutter, than leave, you hurted me enough", she growled, I could see her eyes were filling with tears.

"Iam so sorry for what I did to you, you didn't deserve that", my voice didn't crack, but I gave my best to hold back the tears.

"I just wanted to tell you, that Iam moving to Kansas", the tears left Taylors eyes. It was like I could hear her heart shatter in thousands pieces.

She didn't say anything, so I stood up, taking her hand in mine, before I knelt down, looking up to her.

"What I did was horrible. But I miss you so fucking much. It's okay if you won't forgive me, but please know, that this could be our newstart", I whispered, my eyes looked begging into hers.

Taylors face dropped and she leaned down to me, she placed her hand on my jaw to cup my face.

"You really think I say yes?" She sounded so hurted.

Was it that? I hurted the love of my life. God beeing 17 is so horrible.

Thinking I know everything, but I do not now anything.

"I miss you", Taylors grip thignened at my words, her nails digged into my cheeks.

"Then why'd you leave me?" She yelled in my face. Her voice echoing in my ears.

"Because I thought you deserve better, but I lost the love of my life the day I left you", I couldn't hold back anymore, tears starting to stream down my face, mixing with Taylors tears, which dropped on my face.