Sometimes I wonder where we would be in terms of us if 'we' had never happened. I miss they way we used to be, I miss the way you used to hold me. I know I messed up and I want to fix it. I'm sorry this happened, I wish there was an alternative where there could be no strings attached but I know wherever you go a part of me will follow. And that scares me. It scares me that I don't feel normal when you're around. It scares me how easily you affect me. Just one touch from you and I'd be on my knees. I always thought I was good at understanding my emotions until I felt the things you made me feel. And I'll miss you. Not the you I see everyday but the you I see when it's just the two of us. I miss the feelings you used to give me. Every touch, every time you called me baby. I like the way you look at me and try to pretend I don't exist, but I like the way you look at me when you really want me. These invisible strings and paper rings. But I guess I just wanna say hey, it's all me, in my head. I'm the one who burned us down. But it's not what I meant. Sorry that I hurt you. I don't wanna do this to you. I don't wanna loose this with you. I need to say hey, it's all me, just don't go. Meet me in the afterglow. I'm happy for you and Carlos, but I miss you Charles. I'm sorry.
When I finished typing I hit send. A few minutes later my phone started buzzing signalling that someone was calling me. Without looking who it was I answered:
-Hello
- Um hi Max
I stopped. Why was he phoning me. I wanted to explain but I didn't know he was ready right now.
- Oh hey Charles
- Um listen Max I think we need to talk?
- Yeah
- My house 12:30
- ok
- nice talking bye
- uh yeah bye
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Driving In My Head, Driving In My Heart
FanfictionCharles is a driver for Ferrari. Max is a driver for RedBull. But what happens when they fall in love?
