Samaira's POV
I could see stars. They were there. So was my mom. The wind was too much my tears were drying up. I opened my eyes and wiped them again to stop seeing those stars. I could not accept what my dad and my best friend just did. They arranged my alliance. Without asking me. Even after knowing everything. Even after knowing how scared I was by the thought of marriage. How scared I was by men.
I was in the rickshaw going away from the cafè I just got embarrassed at.
After a few minutes, I reached my home and rushed towards my room. I just threw myself on the floor with all the thoughts flooding in my mind.
'So you stay alive for a living.'
'He will just get bored of us.'
Ishaan!
'If you don't want to marry me it's totally ok.'
And then came those flashbacks
'Please mujhe jane do.'
'Papa bohot dard ho raha hai.'
'Stay away from me!'
And I screamed on the top of my lungs as if the world belongs to nobody. I heard those knocks on my door.
"No! Go away!"
"Betaaa Samaira it's me please open the door bache" My dad shouted from the other side of the door being all concerned.
He wasn't concerned when he sent me to meet that guy.
I got back to my senses and opened the door as I got wrapped in my dad's arms. I completely drowned there and just wanted to be here for all of my life. This is what I do for a living.
Then I saw stars again.
I woke up in my bed as I saw my dad sitting next to me. He saw me waking up and helped me sit on the bed properly. I stared at him for a while as he looked down.
"I know it was a wrong decision not to tell you about it. But if I had told you, you would have never agreed to go. Beta, I care about you. You've been so different after that incident. I want you to stay happy. "
"By giving me to some man dad?" I looked at him with betrayal.
"Are you really happy in your life? You wanted to create your dream job sam. You were so ready for it. And now, look at you. You are dying almost every day bete. Chahe kuch bhi ho mai humesha tumhe khush dekhna chahta tha. Agar tumhe ye shadi nahi karni hai to mat karo mai nahi rokunga. Bas yaad rakhna ki there is nothing wrong in giving the responsibility of your happiness to somebody else for a while."
The last line got stuck in my mind knowing damn well what he meant. He was right.
"Dad I will get married. I don't even have the strength to fight about this"
"You'll be happy. I assure you beta" I nodded as I wiped my tears off.
My dad left me alone in my room as I went to the dressing table and looked at myself in the mirror.
I looked at my lifeless body. My unsparkling eyes and my kajal which was completely messed up. I smiled as tears came out of my eyes again. The only thing which can make me go back to the old Samaira is me. But I have no strength. I will die if I'll be that Samaira again. The happy version of me is lost in the layers inside me. I was ready to submit myself and my happiness to the guy I met today. I got a hint on how he is as I saw him taking his hand back when I didn't shook hands with him.
I rushed towards my phone and dialed a number.
"Say, it's a yes from me."
