John Doe x Reader (Forever.)

Chapter 7: Why?

John sits adjacent to me staring intently he took out his earbuds and his eyes...
His eyes.
and his face

it almost seems to melt away, into... a Monster.

But its still John.
Its still him,


"so UHM... I- 

I've. always been pretty "unhappy" it... just got worse with time.
And my ex boyfreind.

.
.
.

he wasn't too kind to me.
He SAID that he loved me but he didn't show it, 
He really didn't show it.

Eventually, even after I left I kept doing 'it'.
it was a way to just keep something familiar,
Like an science equation, all the other variables changed and that was the only dependant variable.
I've been

Clean.

For a while now, so I'm pretty happy with myself,

Now.
Your turn~"

"wow, that's a lot.
But I'm so happy your doing better now, if any guy...
Or gal treats you like that ever again, tell me.

I̸̩̘̺̤̝̠̲̯̒́̏͋͛̽̈́̊̆͝ļ̷̳̣́̎͆̾̈́̅̿̍̏ĺ̶̛̜̭̦̻͜ͅ ̶̛̻̻̲̱͇͍͍͎̙̦̐̀̀͒̏͊m̴̧̧͇̜̘͔̫͇̀̃̔̋͗͑̌̈́̾̆͜ͅa̴̡̢̒̏ķ̵̢̛̾̓̓̋̊̾̈́̕͝ȩ̴̛̼̪̲̟̈͐͌̉͛̽̚͝ ̸̛̳̹̤͔͓̕s̴̰̲̬͝ư̵͇̬͖͔̏́͆̇̔̾̐ŗ̶̪͇̪͂͌̃͆̎̇͘ẻ̴̡͕͍̹͖̪̘̟̞͊́͂̋̕͝ ̷̖̠̜̖̘̒͆͜t̶̖̓͂́̀̂́̎̿̚̕h̸̙͝e̸͕̘͕̰̜̬̳͚̠͐̄̒y̵̢̡̥͖̫̳̏ ̷̫͉̼̼̭̆̃͛̈́̀̽͐̕̕͜n̶̤̯̮̓́̿͑́̀̄͝ë̴͎̻̻̟̜̥́̇͋̂͆͐͗v̷̢̛̝̩̪͖̪̩̀̾̿ě̷̱̫̗̬͚͙̲̘̥̿̄͑̾̀̊̑̅͊ŗ̴̺̥͉̔̋̽̓͋̓͗͝ ̷̣͕͚̗͉͔̹̭̯̿̓́g̵̛̫̉̌̓͑̀̎͋̉͝é̸̯̺͖̘̟̊́̏͒̽̆̃̚͝t̶̠͇̜̪̞̰͕̯̹͚̉̇̅͑̈͊͝͠ ̸̟̜͚͙̮͓͈́͂̈͌̑̍͐̇t̸̙̫͖̜͔̰̰̩̄͛̈̚͝͠h̵̪͉̩̱̐e̵̜̳̭̞̺̅̄͋͂̾͘͠͠ ̶̨̼͈͙̦͛͑͠c̴̩̗̞̱̣͑͆͗́̎̚͝h̵̪̫͈̮̓͆̊̉̐͂ͅâ̷̩͒͐̅̋͑͠n̶͍͐̄͐̂̒̕c̸̘̽͛̆̊͆̓̈̅͆͝e̶͓̯͗͊̊̄̿̓̎͊̚ ̸̨͕̼̣̫͇͇̙̄̉̐̔͜͝t̴̢̢̨̼̗̤̰̦͋o̷͔͚̳͓̜̾̐̇̏̀̎̑͝ ̴̯͕͚̺͔͖̩̮̺͗̊̔͒̒͛̒͒́r̴̡̙̥̽̿͗́̀ȩ̸̢͕̟̩͚͖͈̓̇̇̈́̀̒̽p̴̳͓̳̮͚̗̝͋ȩ̶̧̪̩͒͒̇͋̀̐͑̚͘͝a̷̠̝͎̾̍t̵̢̲͈̱̳̩̄̓̐̅̈́ ̸̺̩̗̠͍̜̤̖͒t̴̨̙̲̼͒̏̅̂̃͆̆̕͜h̴̺̟̬̖͚̮̭͙̟͉̆͐͌ą̵̙̠̮̘͔̈̃́̅̄̓̆̎̒t̸̪̯̥̘̞̄ ̶̙̈́̃̀͘͘͝m̶͖̪̙̤͙̙̦̌͋̐̀̈̒i̷̡̺̥͎͙͕̺̺͘s̸̗͚̭̝͎̞̥̥̭̓̒̂̑̔̇̕ͅţ̴͍̭̠̞̤̰̗̂̽͋͆̈́͂̐̀ã̴̪͓͚̈́͐̔̍̽̇̔͝͠k̷̙͈̙͖̫̎̓̆̀̄́̚e̴̛̹͊̈́̋̓̓͛


"woah uh John.
That's 
Scaring me..."

Suddenly all I can see is that face.
That distorted.

WRONG.

Face.

"oh but y/n, all I want is Y̵̰̟̼͛̑̒͠O̷̮̬̮͇̯̘̊͑̆̽̈́͌̌͝ͅǓ̴͔͉̓̃̔͜͝"

"John.
Stop this now."

"why?
we are only just getting started, Dear~ y/n"

I stand up abruptly and look at him.
Really look at him.

"what the fuck John."

Almost instantaneously, he's back to normal
His face isn't warped and distorted like it was although that... form. seemed almost realer, like more like him.
Closer to the real him.

"I'm sorry y/n,
I just want you to be happy!" he throws up his arms and grins. 










Just then the bus rolls up, I walk through the Ilse's to the back.
Different than the front where I usually sit with doe.
He doesn't join me but I can see his eyes follow me.
His pupils darting to the back of my head.
I can feel them.