Someone Somewhere (Sandra Alva)

Girls like You

They stopped dragging me, I was pushed onto a tree and it wasn’t long before my attacker had started to kick me causing me to crawl into a ball on the clod ground. I was lifted by my hair and my head was slammed into the tree, I could feel the blood trickle down my face reaching my well busted lips. I could taste blood and only blood it was horrible, all I could think was, why me what had I done to earn me this pain and suffering. I blacked out.

My eyes fluttered open to notice that now I top was gone as well as my bra; thankfully my jeans were still on but not for long, my attacker was still here and I wasn’t able to do anything, nothing I was useless. A sudden pain in my lower body made me jolt in pain, I ended up screaming at the top of my lungs, hoping someone would here me. “Shut up you useless bitch,” the voice was too familiar. “Alex?” was all I could whisper before I blacked out once again.

When I woke up I was in so much pain I hurt and it was dark, the day had set and night was making it way out. I was completely naked and nothing in sight, I had nothing, I was useless, I’m just going to lay here till I die, not he should of killed me he already raped me may as well killed me to. I felt some rain fall it was going to be one cold horrible night.

“Jay, Jay where the fuck are you!” I could here multiple voices call out to me, I rolled onto my stomach causing more pain and ruffled the branched and sticks below me trying to get there attention. With much effort I was able to let out a shrieking help, within seconds bodies were running towards my naked self. I felt so shameful not wanting anyone to see me like this but I needed help.

It seemed like hours later that Shep had found me, he took off his trench coat and wrapped it around my cold lifeless body. The coat acted like a dress, thanks to my shortness but I still felt exposed and frightened. Not wanting to be alone any more I let Shep wrap his arms around me making me feel a little bit better but I truly wanted Sandra. When Mark and James reached me and Shep they, didn’t take long to ask what had happened. I hadn’t told anyone and I didn’t want to tell anyone, I wanted to be gone, gone forever.

I was carried back to the bus by James I noticed that soundwave was no more than an oval covered in rubbish ready to be cleaned up. Sandra was in Marti’s arms it pained me to see them hugging but I knew it was nothing more than friends. When she saw me in James’ arms with nothing but a jumper she was shocked you could see it in her eyes her was angry and sad, she looked broken, she was crying. When my legs finally touched the ground again I tried to stand on my own only to collapse to the ground I couldn’t stand, I couldn’t stand my self anymore. I was truly nothing but waste a broken heap of shit.

I felt a body wrap around me, with out needing to open my eyes I knew it was Sandra, she soon whispered, “it okay babe, I’m here and you’re safe in my arms. Sandra tried to pull me to my feet but I couldn’t do anything I was so weak and hopeless. I felt so broken and I didn’t even know what had happened back in the woods. I could only remember the dragging and the kicking but nothing else, I didn’t want to know what had happened to me back there.  Shep helped me to my bunk and James had water and food for me, I didn’t want anything I was in so much pain, I just wanted it to end.

When I woke up the bus was moving and I was in one of the bunks, my ribs were a stabbing pain and I had a major headache. I hopped out of the bunk taking two steps before I fell to the ground and Sandra ran to my aid. She was helping me up, but I shook her off not want her help I was able, I can do this without help. Sandra looked at me sadly as I pushed her away from me and I walked back to my bunk, pulling myself under the covers. I was so disgusting, she shouldn’t have to touch me, they should just throw me out.

I woke up to my phone playing Someone Somewhere, Alex’s ring tone. I was scared but I had to see what he wanted if I didn’t who knows what would happen to me.

“Hello,” my voice was groggy and broken

“Ah Jay did you have fun before with me, I did” you could hear the evil in his voice,” I hope I that wasn’t the first time for you babe.”

The line went dead and I remembered the awful events of the night before, I couldn’t stop crying he just wanted me to suffer, it was so painful. All the happy memories from when we were together and then it happened. He acted as if he loved me but it was all lies, I loved him but I was so confused. Sandra was next to me rubbing my back trying to calm me down, no words were spoken and it let my mind run wild. That’s when it hit me, what if I was pregnant! I needed to stop this now.

WHAT YA GUYS THINK??? IVE BEEN SICK LATELY SO IM SLOW AT WRITING SORRY >.< love yousss <3