My Roommate

Chapter 12

Ikuto has just confessed to me! Is he joking? He's got to be teasing me!! I mean he can't really love me, right? "I said I love you." He stated again. Wait a minute!! HOLD THE PHONE!!! How can such a popular pervert be in love with me?! I mean I've told myself that I may be falling in love but somehow the words never really weighed on me... UNTIL NOW!!! My face is burning with heat and most likely completely red. How do I respond? Should I tell him I love him too?! This is way to sudden. "I see... Well then, I'll see you at the party." He states, dropping his head as he walks away. Wait? Where's he going?! "Ikuto-!" I stop myself as he turns around, surprise all over his face. "I-I-" I didn't want him to leave me like this, not after confessing so suddenly but the look he gave after I hadn't said anything... I didn't want him thinking I was rejecting him! "Ikuto I-" I was cut off this time by a happy voice. "Amu, Ikuto wait up!!" Miki shouted as she, Yoru, and Saaya ran up to us. Why is Saaya coming?! My face turned from a small bit of nervousness to extremely nervous and completely red. I let go of Ikuto's shirt and stepped back. How embarrassing! I was almost caught confessing!! Ikuto sighed and turned around, a bored expression planted itself on his face. "Amu, lets go dress shopping for the party!!" Miki shouted happily. I glanced up at Ikuto and the things he had said to me just moments ago planted themselves on my shoulders. Saaya suddenly grabbed Ikuto's arm and flung to him. "I don't have a date yet! Ikuto-kun do you have a date with anybody yet?" She asked as she gave me a smirk. My eyes widened as I realized what was happening. Saaya was trying to take Ikuto from me! But he already to me that he's going with me and that he loves me! He's mine! Wait! What the hell did I just say?! I clench my fist. How could I be so stupid? Ikuto's not mine... Should I really go to that dance? Ikuto would be there and I didn't get to confess so I know it will be awkward! I look back at Ikuto to see Saaya smiling up at him. Maybe I should tell him how I feel. Suddenly Saaya giggles and leans up, kissing Ikuto on the lips. He doesn't make a move to push her off. H-he doesn't mind her kissing him? My heart suddenly feels like it's been shattered into a million pieces. I look down at my feet and bite my lip before giving the biggest fake smile I could ever pull. "I don't think I'm going anymore..." My face started to burn as the weight of my words settled into the air. I won't see Ikuto anymore. I'm calling home tonight and I'm going to transfer to another school. My chin trembled slightly and I knew I had to leave before the tears came. The truth was I was really jealous of Saaya and how Ikuto never bothered to remove her mouth from his. "Amu? Why not?! We'll get you a different date!!" Miki said happily. Then it dawned on me. Get you another date? More like find another guy who will play my heart. I thought Ikuto would be different but it turns out he's the same, he played me until he couldn't any more. "No Miki, I said I'm not going! I hate getting dressed up anyways!" I then run away down the hall to our room. Our room? Not for long soon I'll be gone and he'll forget about me just like the others he's played with. After everything we've been through I thought he would be my prince but it turns out I'm not a princess who needs saving anymore. I'm done with that! I'll stay in my guarded tower, I've been taken out of that tower enough times to realize that what I see out there is all just a dream. I slam the door shut and tears pour down my face, washing the delicate make up across my cheeks. "Oh? I was not expecting this... Did I come at a bad moment?" A familiar voice asks. I look up to see Tsukasa. My eyes widen and I look away, embarrassed to be caught in such a state. "Yes, you did come at a bad time... please leave." I say. He sighs and walks over to me. "Honey, tears aren't meant for you." He stated as he wiped them off. I looked at him. I'm so vulnerable right now, I'm letting this strange man touch me like this. "In fact tears usually don't suit any one! Nobody likes seeing such a happy and beautiful girl such as yourself cry like that, it makes us hurt inside too." He continues his somber explanation. I slap his hand away. "If your here to see Ikuto he's down at the hang out spot in the lounge." I state. Tsukasa looks at me shocked. "Oh my! Your crying because of Ikuto? Oh dear!! Things got interesting!!!" He started to giggle weirdly, momentarily distracting me from the problems that adorned me today. "What the solo cat do now???" He asked smiling at me. I sigh and step away from the creep. "He did nothing, it's more like what I did..." I trail off. Tsukasa comes closer. "Go on my dear!!" God he's so weird!!! "I have no idea why I'm going to tell you this but whatever, maybe it'll help.... Well anyways, Ikuto confessed to me." I say. Tsukasa displays an expression of shock. "Really? And your crying because?" He prompts. I sigh and look down at my hands. "I was so shocked, his sudden confession had rendered me speechless. Though I've told myself countless time in my head that I'm falling for him, the words never meant so much until he had said them aloud. I was scared, I was hurt so badly in the past that even though he loved me so much I kept telling myself that I couldn't fall for him and then once I did, I don't know... Saaya just came along and snatched him before I could tell him how I felt, shattering my heart." More tears welded up inside me and my stomach dropped. "It hurts! She stole him and he didn't even fight back!!!" I wail as I throw myself at the strange man. He catches me and holds me tight. "There there my princess. Ikuto has also had his share in the troubled past. When he was little his father left him and his family, he was left alone to fend for himself and help to take care of his sister and mother. He never knew what love was so for him to confess like that, he must of been scared too. He doesn't show much emotion so when I came to visit him that time I was shocked to see him so upset over me grabbing you like that... We all have our scars from caring to deeply about someone and then losing them. Slightest signs of hesitation after showing our emotion to some one close to us give us fear. That my dear is what it means to love someone, you look out for them but you also have to let them look out for you."