Are you sure you're yourself right now?

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I wake up at 6 am. I quickly brush my teeth, dress up(random trousers, T-shirt with stripes, sokszor with stripes, my hair in a bun), and I eat a banana. Then, studying.

I'm a private student. I study alone in my room, weekly with a teacher, Mrs. Bugorden. I always call her Burden in my head. She is strict, and her eyes are dark like the sky before a tornado. She is so old, older than grandma, and grandma is 76, so Burden is...uhhh. Old. Really old.
But, luckily, she only comes on Wednesdays. Ugh, tomorrow.

So I study maths, grammar, spanish, and biology. I finish about 1 pm.

I go down to eat my lunch, and to meet my little family. I run down the stairs, and I step into the kitchen.

-Good morning..-dad mumbles.
-It's like, 1 pm., but good morning for you too.
-Hey, Autumn, don't talk to your dad like this. Apologize, now.
-Ugh, fine. Sorry, dad.
-Good.-mum nods, but doesn't care about me any longer.

I sigh, and I grab my plate. It's some kind of pasta, but I don't even care. I quickly eat, and I run upstairs. I grab my book, my headphones, and my phone, and I run down again. I put on my Converse and my coat.
-Bye, everyone.
-uhhhh.bye Autumn. Where are you going?
-Just exploring the forest.

Mum looks at me with a concerned look, but the phone rings, and she runs to pick it up. I shake my head, and I finally leave the house.

It's so beautiful our here. In may, everything looks happy. The trees, the leaves, the flowers, the lake. It's so peaceful. And so quiet. I walk slowly to the forest. I look at the birds, they are singing quietly, and nicely, of course. After some minutes, i reach my happy place, the forest. Usually no one is there, and it's the same now. All mine.

First, I grab a brench. And some flowers for sure. And I play. But not a normal, silly game. I play that I'm a doctor, and I can make any medicine from brenches and leaves and flowers. The best game ever.

Maybe I'm childish, but when I'm alone, I just don't care. In my childhood, I always had to go to galas, meetings, and so many boring places like these. I have to go the these programs nowdays too, but then it felt like a bigger burden. When I just wanted to play all day, I had to. I have to.
I HAVE TO!

I kick a rock in the lake, to take my anger down a bit. I sigh, and I sit on a bench.
But suddenly, I hear footsteps.

3 boys comes on the road. They look simple, 14 yo. boys. One with blonde, two with brown hair. They're laughing hard, and they seem to have fun. I quickly put on my hood, so they won't recognize me. As they come closer, I can tell that one of them has amber eyes, one has chocolate eyes, and one has cinnamon eyes. I'm great at telling eye colours. Suddenly, they stop. I can tell that they are looking at me, but I clearly look away.
-Why are bats so dirty nowdays...-says one of them.
-That one looks like it came out of a bin!
-Lol, yeah.-the other one nods.
-Hey, don't be like that. Not everyone has golden lifes like you two.

I look up a bit. The guy with the chocolate eyes and the brown hair (such a long name) said it. Maybe he knows something. After some mins, they walk away.
Huhh. They don't know who I am. Just a bat. I don't wanna sit anymore. A start to walk, and I read my book at the same time. Until...

Bumm. Someome bumps into me. We both fall on the ground, then we look at each other. The boy with the chocolate eyes. He smiles, and gets up. He stretches out his hand, and I immediatly grab it. He helps me. And, when we are both standing, we just start to laugh. I start, and he joins. It's like we're crazy or something.

-Sorry. I know I shouldn't read while walking, but I just..forgat about that.
-No, no, it's okay. I didn't pay attention either.
I just nod.
-You were the girl who was sitting on the brench?
-Yeah...
-Then sorry because of my friends. I mean, their life goes well, so they don't really know how to be empathic.
-Oh, it's fine. I was just a bit shy.
-I could guess. So...now I'll have to go..
-Yeah, sure. Bye
-Bye.

And he walks away. He looks familiar, but I don't know where from. Maybe I just don't remember well.

I look at my watch. Oh, shit. It's 6:26. I wanted to be home at 5 pm. I'm gonna be late!

I start running, so I won't be too late. Damn. Damn. Damn! I'm so irresponsible.
I run, really fast.

And I'm in the stadium at 7 pm.

-H-hi...
-Oh, Autumn! I thought you forgat...-says John.
-No, I would never forget it.
-I know you were running. I can see it.
-Okay, sorry. But I'm here!
-Yeah. That's the point.

After like 10 mins, they still don't start. Why?

-John? Why aren't they starting?
-How would I know?
-Idk. You're the basketball fan here.
-But I don't know.
-Nevermind.

Some more mins later, they finally start. Another boy comes, with a red face, maybe because of running.
And yes. There are boys playing, not men. John wanted to play basketball at a very young age, but...mum didn't let him. So he likes to watch other kids play.
They play for 60 minutes. I can't really see the player's faces, but I don't care. It's so boring. When will it finish?
Nothing special happens, just 30 mins later. The boy, who arrived late, suddenly kicks the ball. KICK. In a basketball match! Someone start to shout at him, disappointed looks, and someome even pushed him on the court.
That's not fair!
He tries to explain, but nobody listens. A man shouts again:
-Bitch, you kicked the ball?! You think we are in a football match?

He mumbles something, then...a tall, bald man comes, and...slaps him. I cover my mouse with my hand. Now people run there, shouting. A really stupid music playing, just to distract us. Idiots.
Some time later, they continue the match, but without the football-boy.

At the end, the boy has to come to the court too. He's emotionless. He's just watching the ground, emotionless. It's familiar...

Once, he looks in the camera, what brings his face up on a big television.

He's the boy who I bumped into.