deadly love

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I can't stop thinking about what I did to Rebecca.... the way I hurt her..the way i-...

it was back in middle school,we were inseparable we were best friends. until one day when she confessed her feelings,I didn't want to reject her because I would feel bad so I just accepted it and soon enough we were dating.

I didn't like her at all I only saw her as a friend but I didn't want to hurt her so I just played along. until I met a guy and we slowly became closer to each other,and soon enough I ended up cheating on Rebecca and I couldn't keep it a secret from her.

i ended up telling her and she was heartbroken, i told her that I was sorry but she didn't care she just said "there's no point in living if I can't be with you" I tried to stop her but she jumped off the school roof. that's when I learned she was being bullied and kids at school would jump her,I felt terrible for what I had done. her death was my fault and I couldn't even do anything to help her.

if I had one wish it would be to go back and save her, go back and stop myself from doing anything dumb,go back and stop myself from doing that to her. but there's no point in focusing on the past when I can't do anything to change it.

I just have to start looking towards the future and try to do my best to make friends with Noah and hopefully find out more about him. I take out my phone and look at our messages wondering if I should text him "hey I was wondering if you wanted to see a movie together tomorrow I heard that terrifying 3 is coming out" I press send. I love scary movies and hopefully he does too because I already bought two tickets before they got sold out.

'ping' I look at my phone and sure enough it's Noah "sure I would love to see it!!" phew thank God he said yes I don't know what I would do with the extra ticket if he didn't. I put my phone down and slowly fell into a deep sleep preparing my body for the next day. hopefully I can get some information on him.

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sorry for the late post when I was writing it reset all my progress and so I had to rewrite it:)