PLUTO English Translation

04 (OUR PROJECT)

After I told Pang all that had happened while she was away, Pang dropped her jaw. It took her a while to compose herself after the emotional rollercoaster. She then swallows hard before giving me advice.

"I was away for only two weeks, and all that happened... Aum asked you to go break up with her girlfriend, but you're pretending to be her? Don't you know that you're complicating things?"

"I know."

"If you know, why are you doing this?"

"I don't know."

I'm not mocking my friend at all. I really don't know why I'm doing all this. There's no reason. There's no answer, I only know that my feelings drive my actions. I can't even answer myself why kissing her makes me feel so good... We're back at Pang's residence in the city now. Because she's an air hostess, she makes more money than anyone else in this whole wide world. So, residing in a 3 million baht residence is not out of reach. Pang is another friend with a good job among all the friends in my class year, though she was a bad ass just like me in school...

"Here are your novels."

Pang handed me the few novels she bought because when I went to pay for them, I didn't have enough money to do so. Books are so expensive these days. Someone who just graduated like me obviously does not have enough money to buy them.

"Thank you. If it were Aum, she could have easily bought them."

"Why don't you use her credit card since she's unconscious? You look exactly the same. You can do it with ease."

"Evil"

I scolded her casually.

"But that's an interesting idea. I'll look for the cards in her wallet today.

"The only person eviler than me is you... But are you sure you want to do this? You're pretending to be Aum... but in the end, you two are not the same person."

"Don't worry. I'm not doing anything bad. And Aum's girlfriend is so pitiful. She can't see. And she seems so lonely..."

I think of May's face, and my heart starts to race. "I just want to read to her."

"You'll only get deeper and deeper into it. Right now, you feel sorry for her. But I'm afraid that one day you will really like her. Like... You like her now because she makes you feel something your previous boyfriends didn't. But maybe you're just excited because she's a woman. You may feel nothing over time just as you did with all your past lovers."

"If it gets to that, I'll move on. For now, I can't break up with her like Aum asked me to do. If you see her face... you'd understand."

I felt that the small one was too lonely. It's like she has no friends...

"Aren't you caring about her too much?"

Pang's voice makes me look at her curiously.

"Shouldn't we care about other people? Especially someone like May?"

"May, your twin's ex? Is that really appropriate?"

"Let's just say that if I feel that it's getting too far, I'll back away. Let me be sure whether I feel this way because she's a woman or because it's this woman specifically first."

My beautiful friend looks at me and goes quiet, like she's thinking about something. Her eyes are filled with thoughts that I can't read.

"I would like to know that too."

It's strange... I've never felt like this with anyone before... Well... Okay. If you don't count when I had a crush on a senior at school, that is. I woke up early to wait and see what time he walked to school. But because I get bored easily, when I was in a serious relationship with him, I dumped him like a tissue in less than two weeks for the same old reason. I didn't feel anything when I kissed him. And that feeling is back. I wake up early, dress nicely, and hurry to see Metavee at her house. I forgot that she can't see how I look anyway...