PLUTO English Translation

13 (BUTTON UP)

I don't know what to do. My hand is now in her private parts. I can feel the warmth and the hotness, it takes away my consciousness. Metavee's face is moving slowly toward me. She expertly runs her tongue along my neck.

Gasp...

It's like I've been shocked by electricity. I can barely move when I'm touched like this. I have to admit, though I've had many boyfriends, I've never gone this far because they didn't pass my kissing test. Yet with Metavee, it's different. The person in front of me has a hold on my heart... She has too much of a hold on my body too...

I know what I'm feeling. I understand the nature of things and the deep desires of humans. There were many times I wanted it and wanted to help myself, but I distracted myself, so I never went that far. But now I have someone to help me. This is my opportunity... It's a greater reward than kissing. I move my hand naturally. I don't even know if it's right or wrong, but Metavee is trembling. The petite one can barely balance herself. She puts her hands on the glass wall and splits her legs further apart... Do it....

Metavee's body is letting me explore more deeply. But as I was about to proceed and open Pandora's box, my conscience caught up with me... This is lust... This is sexual drive... This isn't right... I'm not even Aobe Aum!

Once I'm certain that if I go on, I will do something I later regret, I take my hand off Metavee and swiftly get out of the shower. Metavee pauses and stands still before she asks me, confused.

"Why?"

The question was short, but it strangely and deeply hurt me. I don't know what reason to give that would make it all make sense. Stopping mid way could cause her to feel bad.

"It's too fast."

"What's too fast?"

Metavee asks, not understanding what I mean.

"We haven't seen each other for many months. This is too slow for a couple, even. Weren't you frustrated that I pretended to sleep last time?"

"That... Yes."

I think back to Pak Chong and feel angry at myself for being so obvious. But honestly, I still feel it's not
right.

"But when I think about it, it's too fast. Also... what just happened in the shower, I can sense that... it's
too raw."

"What?"

I shut my eyes tightly and felt stupid saying that.

"I mean... I can sense that you felt it, but it was too raw. It wasn't delicate. It was filled with lust. It was
physical, like, to just get it over with. It makes me feel... worthless."

Are those words too strong? But I really felt that way. Though Metavee was jealous and smiled gently at me, everything was as dry as a river during drought.

"For you, I'm like a toy you own. Everything was rushed. I didn't feel loved. Or if I did, it was much."

"We're too old to be talking about love, Aum."

"See? That's how I felt. I've been feeling this for a while now... You do things quickly. Sometimes you even do it without feeling anything. There's no bond or intimacy. Is it only sex for you, May?"

"What it is was expressing love... And I was about to express it to you like I always do, Aum."

"Sex and making love are very different, May."

"Why are you suddenly so sensitive, Aum? You're acting like you're a virgin."

"What does it have to do with being a virgin or not?"