Step Into My World: Vanessa

Chapter 3

Police and ambulance have been the motive for the past week. Questions upon questions but no matter what: I did not snitch. The guilt was surrounding my brain; it’s almost as if I was the one that killed him. In a week time the funeral was arranged. I witnessed it, I was there. I was there when the mother shed tears wanting justice; I was there when his little sister placed her favourite teddy on top of his coffin. Then mud and sand, mud and sand were covering both of them away.

I missed out two days of school because of this, I definitely couldn’t be asked with the comments, questions and judgements. Rachael and Alissa came over too to see how I was doing.

“Do you feel bad?” Rachael destroyed the awkward silence that was surrounding us.

“Umm... Should I ?” I asked.

“Well I don’t know... he must have heard about you guys lipsing on the bus and that so he wanted to confront Matthew init”

“Yeah but I don’t think Nessa should feel bad because she wasn’t the one that stabbed him” Alissa tried to ‘back’ me.

“Yeah I know but still” Rachael added.

The next day I went back to school. I woke up, bathed, creamed my skin, slicked my hair and puffed the ends into a messy bun. I wore my uniform, put on some mascara and eyeliner and applied some Vaseline. I ate something quickly then rushed out the house. I was late and these bitches waited for me for about 20 minutes by the shops next to my school.

“Rahh thanks guys”

“Yeaah it’s fine”

Since we were already late I bought some snacks from the shops and then we all headed to school.

We all signed in and then went to our lessons. My first lesson was Maths and as I entered the class everyone was watching me; some screwed, some were surprised and some smiled (you know that ‘beg’ smile, yeah that one)

“ I didn’t hear you knocking Vanessa” the teacher said

“Oh” I replied

“Why you late?”

“Don’t know I signed in already.”

I walked towards my seat but Matthew was sitting there casually.

“Move out my seat please?”

“Rahhh who you talking to like that?” he answered like he was 'That Guy'

“You, that is my seat,'

“Vanessa, since you missed school I told Matthew to sit there so sit next to Rhiannon and stop disturbing my classroom.”

“Well I’m back in school now so Matthew can move out my seat I don’t care, I’m not sitting next to that brainer he can go sit there”

The class immaturely to stir things up started saying “Ohhhhhh”

“Ay Nessa low yourself man and go find a seat”

“Who you calling a brainer this time you was lipsing up Matthew on the bus”

“Bitch does lipsing and giving brain sound alike to you? Ay shutup why you even talking with your dutty breath man”

The whole classroom started laughing.

“VANESSA OUT” the teacher shouted

I kissed my teeth dirtily and walked out the classroom, I went to meet my favourite teacher who had a free lesson.

“ I swear to God I wanna leave this school”

“Calm down Nessa, what happened now?”

I explained to him everything that happened and he was telling me he was going to make sure I wouldn’t get into trouble. Best teacher man.