Taking care of my thoughts, I've always been told that, especially by my parents.
Being safe in a place is difficult for me, I get used to it but in a long time. My confidence is based on how others treat me to return that. Now, you might wonder, what is this chapter about? Well, today I will talk about my romantic experiences.
First, I fell in love for the first time with a boy, at a young age, we became a couple but, something felt that was not completely right, sometimes I felt strange or I felt alone (this has always happened lol) Although, I loved him, things happened that are risqué, I prefer not to talk so specifically about it, I know it was also my fault, but I don't know, I must have done it because of hormones, I guess.
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We broke up in December 2022, the reason was his mother, who did not want us to be a couple, it hurt me to leave him, but I guess it was the best for both of us. Everyone is fine in their place, really. If we travel to 2023, I had a virtual partner, who although he was incredible as a boyfriend, I feel like I screwed up, he was a good person (sometimes he went overboard with his jokes), but that was something I liked, I lost him because he was stupid, the truth is that at that time I was not the best. I had a lot to learn, to live and I was very careless with our relationship, one reason for breaking up was that we became a couple very quickly.
During all this time, I have not had a partner, it was just crushes, I liked more straight guys (lol). But, a few days ago, one caught my attention, that in itself, we are opposites, one is energetic and athletic and the other an introvert with extrovert traumas. I know that our approach that I would like to happen, will never happen, we are too different, I know him and he is a good person, somewhat problematic, but intelligent. Unfortunately, he likes girls, like almost all men, but oh well.
All these experiences gave me a conclusion: I should not fall in love so quickly. I should love myself before others. Giving my heart is a matter of trust and not just pleasure.
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Cuidarme de mis pensamientos, siempre me lo han dicho, sobre todo mis padres.
Estar seguro en un lugar es dificil para mi, me acostumbro pero en un tiempo polongrado. Mi confianza se basa en como me tratan los demas para devolver eso. Ahora, se preguntaran, este capitulo de que es? Bueno, hoy hablare de mis experiencias romanticas.
Primero, me enamore por primera vez de un chico, a una corta edad, llegamos a ser pareja pero, algo sentia que no estaba completamente bien, aveces me sentia raro o me sentia solo (esto pasa desde siempre lol) Aunque, lo amaba, ocurrieron cosas que son subidas de tono, prefiero no hablar tan especificamente de eso, se que tambien fue mi culpa, pero no lo se, lo habre hecho por hormonas, supongo.
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Rompimos el 2022 en diciembre, la razon, fue su madre, que no queria que fueramos pareja, me dolio dejarlo, pero supongo que fue lo mejor para los dos. Cada uno esta bien en su lugar la verdad. Si viajamos al 2023, tuve una pareja virtual, que aunque fue increible como novio, siento que yo la cague, el fue una buena persona (aveces se pasaba con sus chistes), pero eso era algo que me gustaba, lo perdi por estupido, la verdad que en ese tiempo no fui lo mejor. Me faltaba mucho por aprender, por vivir y era muy descuidado con nuestra relacion, una razon de rompimiento fue, que nos hicimos pareja muy rapido.
Durante todo este tiempo, no he tenido pareja, solo fueron enamoramientos, me gustaron chicos mas heteros (lol). Pero, hace unos pocos dias, me llamo la atencion uno, que en si, somos opuestos, uno es energico y deportista y el otro un introvertido con traumas de extrovertido. Se que nuestro acercamiento que quisiera que pase, nunca ocurrira, somos demasiados diferentes, lo conozco y es buena persona, algo problematico, pero inteligente. Lamentablemente, le gustan chicas, como a casi todos los hombres, pero bueno.
Todas estas experiencias, me dieron una conclusion, el no enamorarme tan rapido, debo amarme a mi, antes que a otros, entregar mi corazon es cuestion de confianza y no solo de un gusto.
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