Lost in your Constellation

Chapter 2: Confessions and consequences

Elora could hardly breathe as she stood there, processing Trifosa’s words. “That’s the guy I’m dating.”

It felt as if the world around her had stopped, time freezing in a moment that felt like a cruel joke. Elora stood there as she was thinking.

-- 'Miel, My Miel?the one who had consumed my thoughts for nearly a year, is now dating with my own friend? please tell me this is a joke, because this is not funny.'

"Isn’t he amazing?He’s so sweet and funny.. You should talk to him, you two would get along real good.”

-- 'Talk to him?' Elora could only nod, her heart heavy as she forced a smile. Inside, she felt like she was crumbling.

Miel had been her secret crush for so long that he became her sun and as he spread his light of joy without him knows about it. But now, he was someone else’s joy.

“Of course he’s amazing, Why wouldn’t he be?" Elora chuckles awkwardly.

-- 'why, why? from all person you could've fucking date in this big ass world, Why him?'

As the weeks turned into months, Elora’s feelings only grew more complicated. Watching Trifosa and Miel together felt like standing in the middle of a battlefield, surrounded by the wreckage of her hopes.

They laughed, exchanged casual touches, and shared knowing glances that made Elora’s heart ache. Why does it hurt so much to see them together?

-- 'it's not fair.. I like him for a long time and she just likes him for fucking 2 months and she already got him- What the fuck..'

At night, Elora was laying on her bed, staring at the ceiling, wishing she could close her eyes and wake up to find this whole mess had been a nightmare.

She should be happy for Trifosa, she reminded herself. She’s my friend. Yet, the more she tried to convince herself, the more the jealousy clawed at her heart.

“What the fuck is wrong with me? Why can’t I just be happy for her... She's my friend. So why am I acting like this?" she muttered to herself.

She tossed and turned, her mind racing with memories of Miel, the way he furrowed his brows in thought, how he’d smile softly at something amusing. Those moments replayed in her mind like a broken record that could never be stopped, and she felt trapped by her own emotions.

Just when Elora thought she would never escape the suffocating weight of her feelings, the unexpected happened. Miel and Trifosa broke up.

The news spread through their school like a wildfire, leaving Elora both relieved and confused. She hear whispers in the hallways, talking about Miel and Trifosa.

-- 'What on earth is going on-? Why the heck did they break up? Shit, did I miss something??' she thought

Elora felt a strange mix of hope and dread, a confusing pull between excitement and doubt that left her questioning everything. Maybe this was her chance, her opportunity to finally say something to Miel.

But then she watched him from a distance, his usual thoughtful demeanor now tinged with sadness. There was something about the way he moved, a new heaviness in his shoulders that made her want to reach out, to comfort him. She walks away and thinks to herself.

-- 'pft- why should I comfort him, after all I'm just a stranger in his eyes..'

As the New Year approached, An idea suddenly appeared in her head. Could this be the moment she had been waiting for? It felt like the perfect time to confess her feelings, to let go of the burden she had carried alone for so long.

When she wanted to believe this was her chance, an uneasy feeling whispered that maybe she was setting herself up for more heartbreak.

--'Maybe this will finally set me free, I mean why not give it a try since I got nothing to do anyway.' she thought

Her heart racing with a mix of excitement and fear. She began typing a message to Miel late on December 31st, her fingers trembling as she typed.

|| Elora (you)
Hey, Miel… Happy New Year! I hope you’re doing okay. I’ve been thinking about how we never really got to know each other. I know we didn’t talk much before, but I really like you. I'm not asking you to date me anything, I'm just confessing. It's fine tho if you don't feel the same, it's kinda understandable.

What if he laughs? What if he feels awkward? What if it was cringe? But deep down, she knew she needed to do this. She had to know if there was any chance for them, no matter how slim.

After what felt like an eternity, she hit send, holding her breath as she waited for his reply. Time felt like it stretched on forever until finally, the notification dinged, signaling his response.

"shit, that was unexpectedly fast from someone like him-"

|| Miel <3
Well, I don't know who are you, but I really appreciate you for saying that. So thank you for being honest about your feelings. But I'm not looking for girlfriend, so I'm sorry but I'm gonna have to reject you.

The words hit Elora like a physical blow. She had prepared herself for rejection, but that didn’t make it hurt any less.

Her heart sank, and tears filled her eyes as she stared at the screen. Of course he doesn’t feel the same way, she thought, bitterness welling up inside her. Why did I even think this would work?

-- 'wait hol up, did he just think that I confessed to him because I want to be his girlfriend? aw fuck no- I didn't even want to date you in the first place, shit head.' her eyes twitch, as anger began to devour her sadness.

|| Elora (you)
Thank you for replying my message, atleast I get my answers now. Happy new year.

She sat in her dimly lit room, staring blankly at her phone, wondering if she would ever find relief from these feelings that seemed to haunt her like a ghost. Her sadness was took over her again.

Was this what she wanted? She had hoped that confessing would lift the burden off her heart, but instead, it felt like she had only added more weight.

“Damn it, why can’t I just move on?” she whispered into the darkness, feeling a deep sense of loneliness wash over her.

𝘞𝘩𝘺 𝘤𝘢𝘯'𝘵 𝘐 𝘭𝘦𝘵 𝘨𝘰 𝘰𝘧 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘸𝘩𝘰 𝘥𝘰𝘦𝘴𝘯’𝘵 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘯 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘐 𝘦𝘹𝘪𝘴𝘵?

The days turned into weeks, and while the New Year brought a sense of fresh beginnings for everyone else, Elora was slowly forgetting about him and talk more to her best friend from elementary school, Lia and Rey.

Elora continued to talk to her friends about life, their crushes and random things. Elora almost forgotten about Miel when suddenly something unexpected happened.

|| Miel.
Hey I'm booking you.

|| Elora (you)
Excuse me
What?

|| Miel.
I mean reserve or something you know- You can't date other people until high school.
I mean, We're not dating
but you're mine
for now I guess?

|| Elora (you)
...
Are you possessed?
Mental?
Or did you get a dare?