Went ghost | SEONGJOONG

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My mind is so foggy right now, I just can't understand this situation right now. Wooyoung has been informing me on Seonghwa's absence lately. Our friend group almost always talked and hung out together which we still did but I didn't think much of it until he was just ignoring me.

We were just fine a couple of days ago, I don't understand why he's ignoring me. My mind is going in circles and I'm starting to get a migraine.

We have been together for three years and for those three years we were nothing but in love. We are practically made for each other. That's what I liked to believe.

Every little thing reminded me of Seonghwa and I had so much trust in him. I told him stuff I never told anybody else other than Wooyoung because well, I truly believed we would be forever.

"I just don't understand what his problem is!" Wooyoung who is currently 'comforting' said interrupting my thoughts even though I didn't ask to be comforted.

"He's probably got a lot on his mind right now Woo." I know he doesn't even if he did he wouldn't just ignore me.

"Too much on his mind? Are you hearing yourself!? He was just hysterical with Soobin so he is most definitely fine!"

Ah, Soobin. I was never close with Soobin but I am well aware of his relationship with Yeonjun so what do I have to worry about? Other than the fact that Soobin has ten times more personality than me, what do I have to worry about! I looked down at my feet to avoid any eye contact, I can get over this.

I'm doing it again, I'm disregarding my feelings. I've always done this, each time my insecurities get to me I tell myself over and over again ' who cares' 'you are better anyways' 'he will always choose you' Would he? I started asking myself that a few days ago.

These thoughts started flooding my mind ever since I was young. I was always so desperate for somebody to be by my side yet I barely put any effort into finding somebody because I was scared.

I always cared about what people think of me although I try to seem tough on the outside.

" 'Joong...you're doing it again aren't you?" I didn't have to respond, he already knew. He knows me the best out of everyone. Just by looking at me you can tell I'm breaking. I was always told not to take relationships seriously but here I am on the verge of tears and my throat burning. I'm not gonna be fine and I'm fine with knowing that.

"Wooyoung, seriously I'll be okay, it's getting late anyways San's probably waiting."

"Are you sure It's safe for me to leave you here by yourself?" I let out a wet chuckle.

"Of course, you are making it seem like I'm going to harm myself or something..." A sigh escaped Wooyoung's mouth before he got up looking over at me, eyes pleading.

"Call or text me if anything happens okay?"

"You know I always will Woo, now go I don't want you to be late!" He chuckled, waving me goodbye before closing the door.

Now I'm all alone. I went to grab my phone and went to my contacts looking for him. When I did I paused. My fingers hovering over the contact. Hesitating a bit, I called him. Then I called him again, and again before deciding to leave him alone.

My heart ached knowing he hung up on me but I still have hope. Hope in him still loving, hoping he is constantly thinking of me, hope that he's wishing i'm there with him right now. Although I know deep down inside he isn't doing any of that.

I flopped on my bed letting out a chuckle, I know I'm probably overthinking it all. I was always one to keep to myself and only ever opened up to Wooyoung. Which took 2 years for me to be able to do. I was 17 when I met Wooyoung. He was fairly new to high school and sat next to me. After that day he never left me alone and no matter how hard I tried to seem bothered by it I never was.