unexpected love

toxic household

I only made into 2nd on the list?!?what?!?I tried my best Naman ah.so why 2nd?!?ano nalang magiging reaksyon ni dad Nyan?!?fuck my life!!I'm tired of being scolded just because of my acads. While loosing my mind after I found out na second  lng Ako sa list I decided na akong umuwi"bahala na Jan ma sermonan kung masermonan"I mutter to my self and walked towards my car and suddenly having some second thoughts.

Should I go home naba?? Pero I feel like someone's stoping me.I guess I'm just scared of being scolded so I'm having some second thoughts if I'm going home na ba or I'll just come home late where they are all asleep na.

I guess I'm going to stay here in my car and come home late nalang para di ko na sila maabutan and Iwas sermon narin, and uwi nalang Ako   maybe until....10 pm??no.. 11pm para sure na tulog na silang LAHAT.im so smart talaga.

Nag-set Ako Ng alarm clock Hanggang 11 pm para gisingin Ako if makatulog man Ako."8pm palang...this will be boring..."I said,sino ba Namang di maboboring eh 3 hours Kang maghintay para mag 11 pm diba??

I grabbed my phone para malibang
"Ang boring Naman Ng phone ko walang man lng  kalaro-laro and Wala pang signal...hayst how unlucky I am"I said in a bored and irritated tone.

"What if punta muna akong.....saan kaya pwede?"Sabi ko sa Sarili ko.para nakong Tanga kakausap sa Sarili ko haha.

"mag drive thru muna  kaya Ako medyo gutom narin  Ako ehh since 8 palang Naman kaya let's give it a
go..."Sabi ko nanamn sa Sarili ko,para talaga akong baliw kaka usap sa Sarili ko is it a sign of loneliness???idk hahaha

I arrived at the restaurant Ng mga 9:43 pm and Hindi na Ako nagpaligoy ligoy pa and I  headed immediately sa drive thru.medyo mahaba ung pila.hayst another boring time of waiting....pero maghintay nalang Ako no choice nakapila nako ehh and gutom na Ako Wala Ng iBang bukas na store here sa .except sa mga convenient store.oo nga no bakit diko naisip ung may convenient store pala malapit Dito hayst....

Finally after waiting it's finally my turn,
I ordered some 1 bucket of chicken and 1 medium fries,1sundae and 1 drink.sorry ha gutom lng Ako kaya naparami order ko..after ko kumain sa car nag park muna Ako sa malapit na parking lot and then I decided to sleep muna  for a minute.time check it's 10:32, ha malapit na....

Time passed,the alarm clock rings so I decided to head back home na..."sana tulog na sila"I mutter to my self  nervously.

I arrived at our house at 11:16 syempre nagbyahe pako ehh.
After kung maipark ung sasakyan ko is bumaba nako and suddenly feels some  slight nervousness.

Pagka bukas ko Ng main door may biglang sumampal saakin.sino paba edi  si dad ,kala ko tulog na sila di pa  pala hayst......malas ko Naman.

"At saan ka Naman nangaling Bata ka ha ?!?!did you know na naghintay kami Dito Ng mga ilang Oras para Malaman kung Anong naging results Ng  mga grades mo ?!?" He said in an aggressive tone"i-im sorry dad na traffic Kasi sa Daan ehh so that's why na late Ako Ng uwi"excuse ko pero that's all a lie."traffic?!?are you kidding us Sophia ?!?3 hours of traffic seriously?!?di kami Tanga!" he gives me an another slap on the face.

"Fine,nag palate Ako on purpose.."
I admit"and why is that??what the reason huh?!? Don't tell me na di ka nag top 1  so you decided na magpalate para hintayin kaming makatulog and para maiwasan mapagusapan about your grades "he said and I was speechless."ohh bakit ka natahimik???so it's true?!?"he said and, I can't help but nod

"Ano bayan! Ang simple na nga lng Ng gagawin mo tapos dimo parin maabot- abot ung top 1?!?Ang Tanga mo namn pag Ganon"Sabi ni dad

"Anong magagawa ko ehh un lng talaga kaya ko..."I said "Wala sadyang bobo at Tanga kalang talaga ...kaya di mo un naabot... Nakakahiya ka ano nalang sasabihin Ng iBang tao??na may anak kaming bobo katulad mo"he exclaimed In anger,

"It doesn't mean na I only made into top 2  bobo at Tanga na ak--"I didn't finish my word because dad give me an another slap on the face"at sumagot kapa..bastos"

My dad was about to slap me again but my mom stopped him"hon. Tama na ako na bahala"she said

Kinausap niya muna si dad and trying to convince him na itigil na ung pag sermon saakin.after trying to convince my dad, my mom succeed to convince my dad to stop.

"Sophia.....punta kana sa room mo Ako na bahala sa dad mo"my mom said and just give me a concern look.she can't defend me as her daughter because she is afraid to have an argument with my dad which may  lead to DIVORCE or baka maslumala ung situation so I guess that's the reason why my mom stayed quiet

after my mom saying that umakyat Ako then pumasok na Ako sa room ko,I slammed the door closed
I lay down to my bed because I was so exhausted,di Ako makatulog that time Dala natin siguro Ng nangyari kanina and dahil sa sakit na nararamdaman ko ngayun.

I few hours later while gazing to the ceiling of my room .may kumatok sa pinto ko
I opened it.it was my mom

"Mom??what are you doing here ??it's late napo ah"I asked because of confusion.

"Sophia are you alright??I'm sorry dikita na depensahan Kanina ha"ika niya"it's ok mom and I'm alright I get used to it Naman na eh"I said.but suddenly my mom cried"w-why are you crying mom??" I asked"no I'm just hurt seeing you like that and I feel guilty din Kasi diko man lang madepensahan ung Sarili kung anak "she exclaimed in sadness

"It's alright mom don't worry,it's ok,I know you're just scared having an argument with dad,Kasi takot ka ding mas lumala ung sitwasyon...so I understand you mom"ika ko,she suddenly hugged me tight and I hugged her back too.we stayed like that for a moment.

"Mom are disappointed in me??"I asked "of course not Sophia for me you're enough,and second sa list okay na Yun mataas na kaya Yun,so don't pressure you self wag Kang magpapaapekto sa dad mo ha.."she replied  and I nodded

"Wait...your face are swollen"my mom added,"it's okay it's not that painful "I replied"no it's not okay let me cure it at least.."
"O-ok thanks mom"
She grabbed some ice pack to the kitchen and gave it to me"ito para mabawasan ung maga Ng cheeks mo"

"Thanks mom"I thanked her once again

At least I have a mother that cares about me,loves me but the problem is she can't defend me Infront of my father but it's okay at least I have her as my mother and that enough for me..

"Are you feeling better now Sophia??"she asked "yes, a little better now "I replied "  thats good to hear... well then goodnight Sophia since it's getting late na" "have a peaceful night and I love you  "she added"you too mom goodnight and I love you...."I replied, and she smiled and closed the door..

I sighed softly and slowly fell asleep

I promised mom na makakaalis din tayo Dito sa empyernong ito....sana..