Stories of a dead person

Bad Booze

I can't keep my mouth shut. haha

I'm okay with keeping secrets, but if you're gonna tell your secrets to everyone and get mad when I tell a single person then that's a bit much.

Before anything I need to explain who Nyl is.
She was my best friend. Before I fucked everything up.

To make things clear, I'm a very angry person. Therefore I simply can't shut up about things cause I just don't think things through in heated moment.

This isnt an excuse though. I made this book specifically so I can't excuse myself from any of my actions. This is my reality check.

Since Nyl liked to talk about how she drinks all the time I suggested we go out to get drunk with my situationship at the time. He loved drinking too and even bought us the alcohol. I asked him to come specifically so I can get dirt on him and his love life with a fun game of truth or drink.

That day was one of the worst days of my life.

Nyl got insanely wasted while I was just somewhat drunk. My man decided to be the soner friend and took care of me. It was the first time a man actually put touched me like that. The way he hugged me, pulled me close to him and helped me stand still. I can't lie I was somewhat taking advantage of it since I jur wanted to feel his touch. That's the only reason I don't regret that day.

Nyl went home drunk after I walked her home, I live a solic half an hour away from her and it was dead at night. I couldn't let her go alone after throwing up in public transport 4 times.

Her mom hated me ever since. I never knew what exactly happened. All I knew was that she was prohibited from seeing me. I don't know if she put the blame on me or if the reason I think that was cause my friends kept implying it.

Nyl promised me we would stay in touch. Why did I later find out she did that just to be 'nice'. She was the first to propose it. Why did she never want to send my apology to her mom? Why was I in the wrong again? I admit, I suggested it, I'm in the wrong for that. I deserve everything coming my way and that came my way before, but why did she just abandon me like that? if the roles were reversed I would be doing everything for my mom to approve of her again. Why was I abandoned? She agreed to it. I can't fully be at fault right? I need help.

She found a new best friend. I stopped caring for her.

Oh yeah, I was the one who introduced her to my friend group. After the incident happened they chose her over me. They went out with her, made a group with her and only called me out when she couldn't. I guess I deserve it, but why did she end up getting the better ending.

My situationship blocked me the following morning.