it was the second of january, I had just gotten over a crush of 4 years by finally accepting what's done was done. then I saw you. I wasn't looking for anything special, or even date at all. you were like a shooting star. you were the only thing I saw. over the first week of school I desperately wanted to go closer to you, you were always the attractive one. I noticed you out of everyone in the crowd, you stood out to me.
january 11. you jumped into a photo I was taking, you're unchallenged by any other boy.
january 12. you sat next to me on the bus, the big empty bus and you sat next to me, "can I sit here?" I finally felt noticed by you.
january 15. the first day of our bonding camp, I couldn't help but notice you were constantly sitting next to me, your small smiles that made everything better. your small efforts to get to know me.
january 16. our first conversation, we were on a trek when we ended up walking together. we ended up together the entire day after that, I was so happy. on the nearly 2 hour trek, you stayed and walked with me the entire time, your laugh and mine sung together like two humming birds. no one's laughter was as loud as ours, you kept pestering me to tie my shoelaces. my shoelaces were wet from the trekking, we sat down for lunch on the floor with all our friends. the constant chatter drowned out everything, except your face. while eating you still kept pestering me to tie my shoe laces, as a joke I turned to you and said "tie them for me then", I was about to turn around, that's when you started tying them for me. who knew that small action could have led to so much more?
january 21. what should I do? he's muslim, it'll never work. I tried to convince myself it wasn't right, I couldn't be with a muslim guy it would be harder for everyone. but everything would be worth it for you. I stopped fighting my feelings. I think I like you, for real.
january 30. I saw you in school that day, ever since then my heart has been set ablaze by you, I couldn't stop smiling around you. you make me laugh, your funny kind and smart. everything good about anyone could be embodied by you, and you were amazing for that.
oh to feel like this again
YOU ARE READING
my love letter to you.
Randomi miss you, come back to me. . highlights of our relationship, I hope I get to continue this, I hope I get you back. i love you more than ever, you're the only thing I want in this life I can't stop crying, I can't sleep I can't eat. I just want you...
