Just my mind

Am I so bad..

Am I so bad that I never get the love i want. Am I so bad that no one looks at me ....
No one wants to be in love with me .
Am i really so unworthy of the only thing that i crave since as long as I can remember....
Am I so bad that I had to cry even on a Diwali night when everyone is being so happy with their loved ones , having the time of their lives....
It's not that my family or friends don't love me but it's not the same as my brother get's it , it's not the same as my other friends get it .... I'm not envious but I'm just sad that am I not worthy enough too.
Am I so bad that I have to feel this every now and then ....
Am I so unworthy that maybe it would be better if I never existed....
How do I get these feelings out of me ? How do I love myself again?
How do I become my little self again .... Who didn't even know about these feelings?
How do I tell her to come to me and tell me "No you are not bad, even you deserve to be loved ... To be cherished... To be remembered."
Am I so ungrateful that even after having people I feel so empty, so lonely.
Am I really so bad?
~Anonymous