I don't even know why I'm posting this on here. It's not like anyone gives a shit anyway. But whatever, this is the same note I made for my mom, "friends", and boyfriend.
Dear mom, how are you?
You know who this is right? It's your fucking daughter. Wondering where I am? Doesn't matter because I'm gone. Two slices to the wrist (vertically of course) and a whole mouth load of pills. You know what's sad? You couldn't even see that your own daughter was in pain. Starving herself. Cutting. Bruising. Did you know that I once went a week without eating? Yeah.. Didn't think so. You never notice. You never care. I tried to tell you, but you were too busy yelling at me to give a shit, it's okay. I'm alright now. I'm in a better place. I'm sorry for keeping you and her away from one another. Since it was my fault of course. Remember? You said I didn't want you to be happy and when you ask why I told you truthfully. There were voices in my head that made me do so. All you could say was, "so you just let voices control you now?!." You then made me read the bible and all I wanted you was to listen. That's it's. but you didn't. You never did.
Dear "friends", fuck you.
I want to say that from the bottom of my heart. You were never there, just only talked to me once in a while. Always ignore me on group chats. Always comforting Julia because she puts her sob stories up for you guys to see. Well now you have all your focus on her. Peace out Bitches.
Dear Adam, I guess we should say the best for last.
I loved you, but what did you do? Throw me away like a rag. I told you my problems and all you could say was oh, sorry babe.are you fucking kidding me? My life was on the line mainly because of you. All I wanted was you to show me that you care! It's crazy that I was so fucking in love with you that I didn't care. Now that I'm gone will you care? Probably won't. Just like how you said you wouldn't care if my cousin died. Fuck you! I hate that I love you.
Sincerely,
You know who the fuck it is. May I now.. Rest in piece.
Byeee
