Ana is my new bestfriend

Is to be the nothingness in life

I open the door welcoming a creek. I see my mother sitting on the armchair. She looks like a zombie. Disgusting and corpse like. It's traumatic.

She immediately stared at me amd locked eyes. I stood for a bit and walked to my room. I heard her footsteps behind me. — "Emmie please open the door." she's crying. I do so as she is the person who brought me into this world.

I just stare at her, no thoughts at all but darkness. She kisses me on my forehead. I see her tears falling from her eyes, snotting, and sobbing. I didn't say a word I just looked in her irises. I see nothing.

After a minute she walks away wiping her tears and sniffing her snot back in her nose. I close my door. I cry, i cry til theres no more of me, until i think I have no water in me left to cry. I wasn't sobbing I just felt tears forming and falling down. I felt nothing though, no thought just tears. No sniffling just tears. I feel nothing, I am nothing other than my weight. I am Emma's void of nothingness.

I drink water out of some half-drank crushed water bottle. I check the time. 4am. Damn felt longer —— I slept in my underwear and my zipper un zipped.

"Whats the point of a zipper unzipped if the whole point was to be zipped? —— Whats the point of a human not eating if the whole point was to grow.