Smoke and Mirrors

The beginning

Warning this book might depict 21+ type of things. Suicidal Acts, Sex, Abuse and all the negative things that people don't like talking about because it's taboo or sad. I don't endorse anything. Don't do it and if you think about it or try to call 911 or go to your nearest ER so they can give you the proper help you need. It's  never too late to get help in life and start new things such as therapy.

So I started this job in the grill working in a fast food chain restaurant my name is Alex. I really don't have a lot of things in my life going no college degree but a highschool one. I applied for the Army National Guard but unfortunately got rejected. I'm trying to get my FOID Card and become a police officer or a security guard here's my story.

This year has been crazy but last year started everything. 2023 in August I started my job as a cleaner I applied I'm really good at it and honestly my OCD makes me attentive to details and obsessed about perfection. I am a people pleaser what can I say. So I used to be a regular cleaner but then got promoted immediately after two weeks of cleaning for assistant manager posts crazy right wrong. Not with me I'm kinda like the person who always gets in first and has VIP spots. I might be dumb as a rock but I'm told that I am hot I really don't see it in me. I'm called a bitch a lot and was bullied ruthlessly in grade school and high school.

Tried ending myself but failed in highschool after my grandmother/ uncle/ cousin passed away from getting killed in the cartel. Same year my best friend died from a DUI accident. It was really rough time but unfortunately the past is what haunts me and keeps me from getting my dreams. Ehh back to the current story of my crazy adventures this year and the end of last year. So I was working with my manager Peter he's great but quite big and also has mental problems and is lonely since he works 80 hours per week which is bad that's why he chose me as his companion for assistant manager because me as a 20 year old hottie and not knowing anything about life makes me easy to talk to like the innocence I have. Well it was good working for and with him cleaned the state department and courthouses and other locations but the state departments and courthouses where my favorite I loved the idea of justice and equality you know before I really got into it. You know the saying "Cleaners are the people who blend in the walls and are often ignored unless they mess up and make themselves look bad."  Well yeah I didn't learn that until the whole ending with my ex boss Karen. I would've loved to know beforehand how my ex boss was before I accepted the responsibility and duties as an assistant manager. It was bad have you ever seen a cold hearted narcissist in action well I did and shit they suck ass. Especially the whole we are family and we're woman we stick with each other together type of thing but just weaponize it. Yeah that was Karen she used everything you told her to her advantage and destroyed it.  It was a nightmare dressed as a day dream and I didn't know because I was naive and stupid at the time. Shit I wish I had known better.