One shots

Charlie: SA - Part 2

!TW - Sexual Assault, Anxiety!

I'm standing there in the toilet with Ben, silent and frozen. My heart is pounding so hard I can hear it in my ears. I try to understand what is happening right now, but the panic is slowly starting to take over my body. His face is angry, and there is nothing friendly left in his eyes. The room suddenly feels smaller and I force myself to meet his gaze - even though I prefer to avoid it. He takes a step closer, and now he's only inches away from me.

Before I can react, he quickly grabs my wrists tightly and pushes me backwards, so that I'm standing between him and the wall. I quickly feel the pain through my arms.

"You can't just walk away from me like that"

Ben's voice is strong and determined. He takes off Nick's red scarf that I have around my neck. He casually throws it on the floor and my heart breaks a little at the sight. I try to move, try to scream for help but nothing happens. I quickly begin to realize that I won't be able to get out of here on my own. Ben's lips are quickly placed against mine, but I try to turn my head away as best I can. Ben is way stronger than me though.

Suddenly, the sound of someone trying to open the door to the toilet is heard from outside. Ben flinches quickly and immediately releases me as his eyes flick to the door. I think he realized pretty quickly that it wasn't a safe place to do what he really wanted to do with me.

"See you another time Charlie"

With a quick movement, he opens the door and walks out of the toilet as if nothing happened. I quickly go and close the door behind him again, locking it, then quickly walk back to the wall. I'm completely numb and scared - but I'm also, finally, alone.

I slide down to the floor with my back against the wall. My eyes fall on Nick's red scarf lying on the floor some distance away, and with shaky hands I pull it close to me. The smell of Nick makes me cry even more - I want him here.

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With slow and heavy steps I reach the front door of our house. The way home was long and depressing, and I didn't really know how to explain everything that had happened to Nick. My heart beats a little faster as I open the door and walk into the hall.

"Hello darling"

Nick's voice echoes in the house. I slowly take off my outer clothes and then go into the living room. Nick is sitting on the couch with a book, which he puts down on the coffee table when he sees me coming. His happy expression quickly changed to a worried and thoughtful look.

"Charlie? Didn't you have a good time with Ben?"

His name makes all my tears fall. I sit down on the couch next to Nick, but I don't know how to answer his question. Nick looks at me with a worried look but lets me take my time.

"Um... Ben... he..."

That is all I can say at the beginning. My voice shakes and tears flow like rivers down my cheeks as I think back on the incident and what could have happened if Ben had the freedom to continue.

"He... kissed me... He forced... himself on me. In the toilet..."

Nick gently put his arms around me and pulled me closer. I cry into his chest and hold tightly to his shirt to find some kind of security. My breathing quickens and I feel both relief and shame spread through my body. But Nick holds me steady, whispering calmly in my ear.

"I'm here. You're with me now, Charlie. No one will do anything to you"

The words warm my heart - but I'm still scared. We sit here on the couch together in a comfortable silence. Nick is my security in all of this. He never judges me and is always there with understanding and patience. It really feels like I have found my home.

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A/N: Im so so sorry for the long wait. Its really much going on atm and my mental health isn't  the best rn. But here is the second, and last, part of this little one-shot. I hope you guys enjoyed it.