𝐎𝐌𝐄𝐆𝐀'𝐒 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 𝐒𝐎𝐍𝐆

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𝑲𝒂𝒚

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I pushed him when he tried touching her. What the hell was I thinking? Why did I speak to him so rudely? Fuck, what came over me at that moment? I need him. I want to go to him and ask for forgiveness, but he's not in the hospital. He's not here. I couldn't smell him.

Fuck, fuck, fuck. I was about to look for him breathlessly when a hand landed on my face. Someone punched me. Hard.

"Do you have any idea what the hell you did?" Tian's sharp, angry voice cut through my thoughts.

Asshole. How dare he punch me? I've always disliked him, mainly because it's obvious he has feelings for May. Fucking bitch. May is oblivious to Tian's emotions, but I know. That just makes me want to kill him. But I cannot, or May would hate me.

"Why aren't you speaking, fucker?" Tian spat, his fist clenched.

I seethed, ready to punch him, but his next words froze me.

"You know what you did, Kay? You left him there, alone, without even noticing. What if I wasn't there? What if I'd also left?"

I couldn't reply. Tian's words cut deep. I had left May behind, unaware of his absence. The weight of my mistake crushed me.

Tian's grip on my collar tightened. "You left him, Kay."

I couldn't punch him; what he said was true. I left him alone.

He was clutching at my collar while I stood there, letting him do it. Because I couldn't do anything; I left him alone.

He was about to punch me again when Vivian came and stopped him, pushing him out of my grasp.

"Where is he, Tian?" I asked without saying anything else, without replying to his other questions. I don't have time for this; I want to go to him.

"What are you doing, guys?" Vivian asked, looking at us both.

"And where is May? Where is he, Tian?" He asked worriedly.

But I don't have time for any of this. I have to go to him.

"Where. Is. He. Tian?" I asked with a voice so hard it would make anyone shiver.

Kay, you're releasing your warning pheromones. Stop," Vivian said, clutching his hands, trying hard not to fall to his knees due to the dread my pheromone was releasing.

"I won't repeat myself, Tian." I said, and it was the last time I was asking.

"At home-"

I didn't let him continue and went out of the hospital, letting them figure things out themselves. I have to go to him.

My heart is beating fast. Fuck, I hate hurting him. I hate letting him sleep alone in our freaking huge home.

Coming out of the car, I instantly smelled his scent. He is here, and the relief I got inhaling his pheromones instantly calmed me. Ah, how much I love his scent. How much I love him.

Going up to our room, the whole house was silent. He didn't even eat dinner; I assume all because of me.

Turning the knob of our door and opening it, his pheromones welcomed me. This sweet scent feels like I'm in a garden full of flowers. It feels like heaven. He feels like heaven.

Entering the room, I saw him sleeping, snuggling cutely, and he was hugging my shirt. Just looking at him made my heart skip a beat. I want to replace that shirt with myself.

Going close to him, I noticed he was sleeping peacefully with dried tears on his cheek, and how much I want to punch myself for being the reason for his tears.

His beautiful face was calm; his bubblegum-colored hair was coming to his eyes.

I kissed his forehead after sliding his hair behind his ear. Inhaling his scent from his hair, my whole worries got out, and only him and his scent remained.

⊹ ࣪ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁﹏⊹ ࣪ ˖

After taking a shower and changing into pajamas, I called Vivian, telling him May is alright and asking how Rose's condition is.

Hanging up his call, I went directly to May, holding him closely to my chest so tightly that he can't ever escape from me.

Pecking his lips, I hugged him to my chest without any t-shirt, because I like skin-to-skin connection with him.

With him hugging my chest and my chin on his hair, I am home. He is my home. He always will be.

But the way I hurt him tonight is still haunting me.

Not being able to sleep, I remembered the first time I saw him, and didn't I fall for him at first sight?

The day I first saw him with his hoodie up, hiding his hair, revealing those brown eyes that felt like honey and sunshine to me. His pink, plump, pouty lips and moles under his eyes, with a face so perfect, he is the most beautiful person I've ever seen.

His flowery pheromone stopped my heart from beating; it was like I was in a different world. And at that exact moment, I realized I wanted to spend my life with him by my side, protecting him from this world and protecting him from my own scary personality. I changed myself for him and only him.

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*Big baby is whipped for my boy😭🫂*