Your Love Is Enough [SBG]

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It isn't easy to focus.

It isn't easy to focus knowing I'm struggling but not academically nor physically. Knowing that I got paired with kids for a project.

Knowing that I'm currently being glared at by a kid I don't know the name of.

I didn't pay attention to introductions, I won't need to be with these kids much longer.

I don't know why this kid is looking at me the way he is. I don't think he knows I know that he's staring at me.

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I have a corner in the public library.

I don't own it, obviously. It exists for everyone.

But whether people know I always sit here or just don't bother to walk all the way up to the third floor, nobody ever comes up here.

Maybe it's because my corner is right by the Colleen Hoover section. Nobody ever goes by that section. It's okay, that means even when I'm not here its like my seat's reserved. 

I go there almost every day after school, not just for school assignments, just to read. I mostly don't check out books. I do sometimes, but usually I bring books, my own. The book I'm reading now is called 'We'll Prescribe You A Cat'. 

Sometimes, I wish I wasn't always alone. There's a lot of benefits, but sometimes I wish I had someone to share my books with.

I would recommend them my favorites, like the one I'm reading, or The Giver or The Book Thief.

I like silence, so maybe I'd just like to have someone sitting with me, staying silent, and whenever I like a book I can just hand it to them and tell them to keep it, because that's what friends do.

Whenever I finish reading, I pack my bag with my books and headphones and walk home.

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I like helping my grandparents with the shop, I like flowers. Sometimes things go wrong and I end up dirty or wet, but It's always fun.

I know my grandparents try their best, and that's why I always feel guilty. They always feed me well and help me with homework when I need it.

But I still never feel like I'm enough.