Serendipity

chapter 37

Nothing was same after that moment for jungkook, his life turned upside down. He regretted going to her room, listening to his voices he regretted everything. Was he betraying Seo-ah how can he even think of looking at someone in that way let alone falling in love with them. Love only happens once isn't it? He loved a girl who he married how can he even think he can love someone again. It can't happen that's ridiculous there must be some misunderstanding maybe he is still confused and this isn't love, maybe he's just attached as she takes care of him and Han, nothing else right? Maybe he doesn't like burak because he doesn't want to share that attention and care he gets from her. Jungkook spend every night finding some good excuse or reason of him feeling that way. He can't love her that's not possible, this could be anything but love. One thing where his mind got stuck and his excuses became futile was the fact she loved him too, why did she never expressed, how come he never noticed it, did she ever gave him any signs or hints he thinks hard but nothing came in his mind, his thoughts were interrupted by a knock on his door. He granted permission and saw Hye jin walk in with files in her hand "Adam prepared the drafts, and asked me to forward them to you to finalize whichever you like better" jungkook nodded "and you have a meeting in half an hour with JS publishers" she informed and made her way out "Hye jin wait" he called right when she was getting out of office "sit down for a moment " she took a seat in front of him "you know miss momina very well right?" Hye Jin didn't expect such question but nodded Nonetheless "has she ever mentioned about her love interest?" Her eyebrows shot up "miss Hye jin please don't lie to me ok, be honest " "she has never said anything about liking someone" jungkook leaned forward "please be honest " she blinked her eyes in confusion "I'm being honest sir, there's no one if she had feelings for anyone she would have told me" jungkook slumped back in his chair "is everything okay why would you ask about her love life?" "And above all she's now engaged to burak, even if there was anyone she must have move on the last thing she would want is to betray her fiance" jungkook grits his teeth "is moving on that easy for her? How can she suppress her feelings like it's nothing?" Hye Jin didn't know what lead to him ask about her personal life "as much I know momina she can suppress her emotions for the person she's currently associated with. She won't lead him on without having clear mind about where the relationship takes them. It's just how she is and honestly speaking, I've seen burak and momina she's happy with him he makes sure she is happy" "thank you miss Hye jin" she looked at him "did something happen?" He shook his head "nothing just forget it" she stood up and took permission to leave which he granted with nod of head. Around 7 he went home and was greeted with usual two energetic and feverish people, he's been trying to notice any difference but nothing was different she was being herself that's how she was from past two years "what's up with you, are you okay I've noticed you get lost in thoughts out of nowhere" she asked but he only stared at her face "jungkook you're worrying me" He shook his head "I'm just tired " she wasn't convinced but decided not to force him "if you say so, if there's a problem don't keep it inside share with someone " she grabbed her bag ready to leave "share with who?" She looked at him "you have friends and I think they will give you best and unbiased advice " "and you? Do you not want me to share my problems with you just how you used to insist on asking me" she smiled "I'm here you can always tell me as well" "but you're gonna leave soon isn't it?" She sighed "it was bound to happen sir, I wasn't meant to stay here forever- " "why not" she inhaled through her nose jungkook was being difficult again creating problems for her "because that's how life is, one comes then leave it's my job then someone else will take my place that's how things work" "not everyone leaves, some stays for lifetime. They are with you at your lowest and highest" "that's for life partner Mr jeony not an employee, I'm an employee who take care of your son in your absence. You pay me for that every month" jungkook looked at her "is there any other way?" He asked "there is, if you start looking for a partner instead of another employee jungkook. This is life we have to move on with time if you're stuck then it will only create problems for you" "just like how you did" she was taken aback by his response "sorry?" "I mean just like you I should find someone and settle down" she sighed in relief "exactly" momina stood up to leave "I'll take my leave now, food is ready and warm eat it otherwise it'll get cold" he nodded "miss momina " she turned toward him "yes?" "Can one marry someone they don't love?" "Marriage is a relationship whose foundation are based on mutual trust and respect, both individuals are committed to be there for eachother love can happen later it's not necessary to marry the person you love, sometimes they're not meant for you" she smiled at the end and jungkook thought how can she smile after saying such a difficult thing "you won't be happy if you give up on love" she shrugged "happiness is created jungkook shi, it depend on us" he stared at her, he wanted to tell her to stay but at did he have the right? No he didn't. she belongs to burak now, she has moved on without even letting him get the inkling of her feelings. He could only stare at her retrieving back which disappeared behind the closed doors.
It was weekend so jungkook decided to take Han to meet the sheikh, this time he didn't ask Adam and drove them to the mosque by himself. It was past prayer time so there weren't many people, one of imam student informed him about jungkook's arrival who immediately came out to meet him and was pleasantly surprise to see his little one "ashmaikum uncle" imam looked at jungkook who smiled "walikum asalam my dear son how are you" "ahamiya(Alhamdulliah) I'm fine" han grinned "MashaAllah jungkook your son has learned Arabic words" jungkook nodded "he's 50 percent Muslim by now and I think if he continues to practice them he will become a complete Muslim" imam smiled "he's really adorable and well mannered, well done son make sure he becomes a great man like you" jungkook looked down " it's all his noona's efforts I don't deserve the credits for his upbringing " "you don't mind if he says these words look he's also praying like Muslims must have seen his caretaker do the same" he looked at han who was standing straight then bowed and laid down on mat, then repeated the process "I don't know sir, I don't have any problem with him doing or saying things that Muslims do" imam nodded "you're quite liberal, most people don't appreciate it " he shrugged "they're nice people I don't think what they do is wrong, I'm not a religious person myself, I get to learn alot of things through Adam and his family which are actually logical to think about it. I trust them completely even if they're teaching him how to pray then there's no harm" imam looked surprised by his response "ok let me ask you something " he nodded his head "what do you think about God" jungkook took a moment to collect his thoughts "for me God has always existed, I have seen myself asking for his help in difficulties, I've noticed my self thanking him I'm times of relief. There were times where I was angry at him as well, I felt strong resentment toward him when he took my wife away. So for me he is there doing everything but that's it, nothing comes before or after it" imam nodded "you'll always be in my prayers son, you're a beautiful creation of Allah and I love you for the sake of Allah. Consider me like your older brother, if you need any help or advice or even want to share something just know you'll find this guy here" jungkook smiled and glanced at Han who was sitting with group of students learning Quran "sir" imam looked at him "can I be in a relationship with Muslim" imam paused before answering his question "a Muslim man can marry a Christian or Jewish girl they have the exception but on condition that they'll revert sooner or later meanwhile Muslim girl can not marry non Muslim, she can only marry a believer" jungkook kept looking at Han as he listened to imam and the answer had his heart squeezed in its cage "is there any way?" "There is a way, but it's not an easy path. You'll have to revert and believe that there's no God but Allah, that prophet Muhammad is his last messenger, you also belive in day of judgment, on the holy scriptures on his angels and prophets" jungkook sighed "son think about this without being under any kind of pressure or confusion. It will only mess up your thoughts, try and search for what is missing inside you, if you aimlessly wander then there are chances of getting lost. Be careful and mindful to what you want to achieve yeah" he nodded "thank you sir, I'm really confused and  frustrated these days" the sheikh patted his shoulder "take your time, what's yours will always come to you" "but what If it gets late and there's no chance of having them" " if it's yours, Allah will make it go through 7 oceans and reach you on right time. Don't loose hope" Han came running back to his father "dada Han want that" he pointed at shelves where Quran were placed "you can't read them Han, when you grow up i'll buy you one " Han pouts "but Han want, Dada read stowy for han" imam chuckled "how about I  tell you a story?" Han eyes twinkled "yayyy uncle tell me stowy" "hmm so there was a boy-" he continued to tell him some random story which distracted him from the topic.