If You Knew

Cairy's Private Story

Cairy's POV

I liked a guy last year, a lot. He liked me back too. His name was Kellin. We used to talk online for ages, because in real life we were scared to. We weren't going out. He never asked me. People just assumed we were. Kellin was a year younger than me, but we both felt like we were the same age.

It was my grades camp, we slept at school and did cool activities there. Everyone knew I liked Kellin, I would also get teased for it.

We were walking back to school from bowling and two boys come up to me and my friend. One put his arm around my shoulder, and kept walking. I got scared, and I knew he liked me. His name was Oscar. He was real sporty, and I didn't like very sporty guys. We kept walking and he still had his arm around my shoulder. Everyone saw. The boys behind me started saying "Oh!! I'm gonna tell Kellin!"

I told Oscar to get off me, and to stop touching me. I ran away with my friend. But he kept following us. He did it about three times. I went up to the front and told the main teacher who was taking us, and he told Oscar and his friend to go all the way to the back, while I was at the front of the huge line.

We got back to school, and it was getting dark. We got to choose a movie, and my friend and I chose "Shark Tale". We didn't want Oscar to come, so we ran quickly. Oscar went to a separate movie, but then came to this one. He sat at the table where my friend and I sat at. He hugged me, I yelled at him. " Get off!! I don't like you!! I like Kellin you idiot!!!" Oscar didn't care. He said "You like me. I know. You don't like Kellin." I pushed him off and started calling the teachers name. My friend and I kept moving away from him.

He then started playing with our hair. I told him not to touch my hair. Then he moved on to my friend and started touching hers. It was honestly sexual harassment that night and I honestly couldn't wait to see Kellin again.

It was the morning, and some students starting coming to school. Oscar wouldn't stop pestering me. I told him to get away so many times, I honestly didn't know what to do anymore.

I stayed in Room 15 where all the girls bags were. No boys were allowed in there. Soon Kellin came to school with his cousin. I saw them walk past, I'm not quite sure if he ignored me or if he waved hi to me.

I walked outside, and everyone started coming up to me saying "oh!! Saddie!! Kellin's crying because of you!" Everyone started hating on me. Lots of kids started saying shit about me. I was called a slut, idiot, and so many other things.

I sat in Room 15. There were tons of girls in there as well, chilling. I sat on a blue sofa holding my bag. I was also holding in all my emotions. My other friend came up to me and asked me if I was alright.

I couldn't do it anymore. I couldn't hold it all in. I planted my face in my hands and cried. Some other girls came up to me and comforted me as well. My friend told me boys are stupid, and to just forget about it and have fun today. I was so lucky to have a friend like her.

Kellin thought I liked Oscar. He thought I used him. Oscar was Kellin's friend, so Oscar probably bribed Kellin into some stupid shit he said. Kellin hated me. His cousins did too. Then his friends. Then the whole class and most of my whole grade.

I felt so lonely.
I felt so useless.
I felt like a nobody.

I didn't want to show up to school without people hating on me, but I had to.

Oscar went back to teasing me. One day someone bombed the toilets, and my friends and I were in there getting changed. I was out first, and Oscar was right outside. He started calling me "Diarrhoea" and when ever I was around him block his nose. Some of his friends played along on it too. I went home, talked to nobody and sat there crying for so long. I couldn't stop.

My cousin came in, and she started worrying about me. I had to tell my Mum, my Aunty and eventually my Nana.

My cousin stuck up for me. She was the only one who truely cared at school, and who kept by myside no matter what.

A week later

It was lunch time. I was sitting with my friend. She was there for me also, but she was also on Kellin's side as well. Kellin and his friends started making fun of me, since I was near. I sat there. I stopped eating. My friend knew I was irritates by something. She didn't really say anything tho. She knew it would make it worse.

Kellin also had a nickname for me. It was "Snake" and they would make a hissing sound whenever I was around them, or whenever they said something with an "S" in it.

They were there, and they said "Ssssso how wassss the weather today?" And they would keep mocking me.

I couldn't hold it all in anymore. I saw my cousin in the corner of my eye. I got up, sobbing. Unable to stop crying. This was the most I've ever been hurt so much before. When I got up nobody cared, they just sat there, they didn't give a fuck about me. My friend got up and ran to me.

This was the time I officially hated Kellin. I still had feelings for him until now.

I fucken hated 2014.

All because of something Oscar did. Kellin thought I had a romantic night with him. No, I didn't. And it's not my fault he didn't believe me.