God's will or God's will

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by bed0monster3

by bed0monster3

Sometimes i want it my way,
sometimes i stray away.

Sometimes it feels like God is taking too long to do His thing,
to show me His way,
His will.

Sometimes it feels like He can't hear me,
like I'm just a squeak amongst howls.

Sometimes it feels like He is too busy dealing with more "important" prayers
to so much as glance at mine.
like I have become a mere thought,
a mere creature.

Sometimes it feels like He put me at the bottom of His list,
that my problems aren't problems
that I'm just being "dramatic"
that I should get over myself.

Sometimes it feels as though my will is God's will
until it crumbs
and becomes a plan gone wrong

Sometimes it feels as though God's will is my will
until it all goes right

Sometimes it feels as though God isn't present at all
and he left me to crawl into the dragon's cave
It feels like my ever "ominous" God i believe in
suddenly went missing when it was my turn to get fixed

I don't get love
I feel its presence but I don't feel YOURS
I hear of its warmth
but feeling it will forever
remain a dream too high
a prayer left unanswered

I prayed for me,
i prayed for him,
i prayed for US

Is 'this' God's will or mine?

if we were to date, would His will be glorified?

All though sometimes I feel ignored
like I was put on pause
or on the "I will deal with this later" list

I will trust in You
I will hold on tight
the road ahead may be bumpy.
but as long as i let You take the wheel,
we will reach our destination

i may be bruised and broken
but my flame still illuminates in the dark

For what i have planned for myself,
You've planned it better.
For what I've planned for me
isn't what You have planned for me.
For I know that it will be Your will done
not mine

It's God's will or God's will