Long Time Coming.

New Beginnings

What are my new beginnings? So much. So fucking much. So absolutely fucking a gigantic amount much. What is wrong with me. Borderline. BORDERLINE. 

Well one new beginning was getting my first tattoo. 

Love Yourself VIII. XIX.

That's what the tattoo says. 

I have a couple of tattoos. New Beginnings or Intrinsic being the fifth one. In the future.

2. My first masturbation. 

I was about twelve or thirteen years old. I enhanced my period if that makes sense. It felt really good. Do not be afraid to explore yourself: my good sis.

P.s still a virgin at the time of writing and publishing this. Scared. Of dick. Still. Attracted though, don't get it fucked up. 

3.  My mom is an abuser. I know. You feel my aura through my writing. It is a Christ likeness thing. She deadass is though. She has been an abusive sociopath her whole life. Very loved by me the person and the Lord the, inhuman.

4. I have a lot of friends. Do not know how we will all come together, but I welcome foreign energy often. 

5. I never knew. There is a lot about life that I never knew. How to cook. How to drive. How to complain. Bitch and complain bitch and complain bitch and complain. We love Marlene. 

6. My favorite color genuinely changes every year, but I will always like blue. It's the sky. There is always sky. 

7. My dad died and I have siblings. No one growing up really knew my family. Like at all. I feel like we are very hidden individuals. Very blessed I believe. Called if you will. I am literally Christ. 

8. I do know why I am a sociopath. I love myself. 

A lot. 

A lot. A lot. 

I inspire myself easily. I encourage myself often. I hum a little too, which I am okay with. My disciples care a lot about my sex life. It is just sex as I continue to hear. Maybe it is, maybe it is not. I do not know. I will ask Ava Jules one day.

9. I like being deep still. I have a hard time with depth because I have literally been around water signs my whole life. Not, in a way. We are very multifaceted people. It is time we act like it. 

10. I may have been more severely mentally ill then I give myself credit for.  I went through a lot my whole life, but especially the 20s and late teens of the 21 century. When does a century change anyway? 2030 type. 2040 type. Someone prophesy. PLEASE. 

11. My favorite number will always be seven because it is how old I was when my dad died. And seven in cursive looks like how I feel I am perceived: Fancy. 

12. I mean well a lot. I say a lot of shit. Some good, some bad, some nice, some mean. My intentions are always pure though and I know that now. In Jesus mighty name.

13. I loved high school.

14. Middle was not all that bad either.

15. Elementary school even the more.

16. My mom is an abuser whom I love dearly. 

17. I am not the fucking one.

18. Too bad so sad. 

19. Fix your face. 

20. Why me? 

21. Metro booming. I am famous in fact.

22. Get saved. Get baptized. By water, spirit, and body.

that's all. we end on an even number, or it is odd. eccentric.