Queen of deception

Chapter 4: Isabelle's Pov

Have you ever been in a crowd, but felt more alone than ever before? Well, that's me at the moment, I'm in a car surrounded by my friends who has been there for me literally every day, and well then there's him. But I have never felt more lost and alone than I do right now.

I feel like I'm making a huge mistake and I'm afraid that my stubbornness is going to either get me and my friends in trouble or killed. Yeah, I'd rather get in trouble, I mean I don't want to die. And it's not like I can tell my friends since, the moment I tell them they will just agree and say that we have to go home and forget about this. And I can't do that, I need to know who I am and where I came from. 

My breathing quickens and the heat consumes my body. It feels like I'm suffocating, and little black dots cloud almost all of my vision. I immediately know that no one can see me like this, and I push Sam out of the car and walk as far away from the car as I can. 

The moment that I know that I am in fact alone, I start to focus on my breathing and start thinking about my memories at the beach and anything positive. I now realize that, that was probably not a smart idea since I am now having a full-on mental breakdown because I feel like I am betraying everyone that I know, and what if my family finds out? Will they still love me? Or will I be left all alone. Salty tears sting my cheeks and sobs escape my mouth as I slowly go to sit down on the wet, muddy ground.

I remind myself repetitively that this is necessary and that I need answers, but I can't help thinking about my family. What if I die? What if I get stuck in the other world? What if I never see them again? Or what if I do and they hate me?  The first thing that I can think of doing is one wiping my tears because I don't want anyone to see me in this state. Like I'd rather die. The second thing that I do is sketch a plan with a grows random stick on the ground, I list the steps that we need to follow and repeat it over and over to myself to provide some form of reassurance. The third thig that I need to do is answer my parents 1000 missed phone calls, and I'm not even joking, they have basically blown up my phone.

Okay here goes nothing, I adjust my voice to avoid any cracks.

"Hey mom "

"Where are you! Did you really sneak out, come on Belle I thought that we could trust you. You are better than this."

"No.  well yeah, I did sneak out but I'm with Jenna and we are just having a sleepover at Millie's "

I don't even know a Millie

 "Who is Millie, and why didn't you just ask us? We were so worried, and your brothers went insane. We thought someone took you "

"I'm sorry mom, I really am. I just needed a break. You know how tiring it is for me; I mean I had like 10 interviews today and I had to give everyone answers to things that I know nothing about."

"I know sweetie, I know. It will get better. Just please be safe and come back soon. Don't stay away for too long. Three days maximum, I will talk to your dad. Just please send me updates every day, so I know that you are alright. Otherwise, I'm sending a swat team to come find you "

Thank goodness I talked to my mom and not my dad, Yikes he would have freaked out. 

"I will momma, I love you"

"I love you too sweetheart "

Okay now that, that is sorted out, I have to go back to everyone. I take a few deep breaths and start to turn around to get back to everyone, but then the sound of footsteps stops me in my tracks. And it didn't take long for me to see whom the sound belonged to.

Because when I look up that's when I saw him, his brown eyes meet my blue ones and I just pray that he doesn't see my tears or heard me cry. But mostly I'm surprised, because why would he come searching for me?

I feel nervousness enter my body and his name escapes my lips. Just as I said it, I can see how his breath hitched, and oh my, butterflies just completely filled my stomach.