dil se dil jud gaye

17

Wiping her tears zainab moves out of the house with a heavy heart

"Mai aur nahi de sakti kisi ko dhoka sir maaf karde mujhe"saying she moves while a cab picks her she moves to zubia's house as she rings the bell a sleeping zubia comes and open but was surprised to see her friend at this late hour

"Zainab kya hua tum iss vakt"zubia asks holding her bag and giving her way to come inside

But zainab as soon as sat on the couch started breaking down making zubia frown and run towards her holding her she asks

"Zainab , zainab yaha dekho mujhe bolo yaar kya hua aise kyo ro rahi ho ha"zubia asks looking at her with distress

"Sab khatam ho gaya hai zubia , meri ek galti ne kai zindagiyo ko barbaad kar diya hai mai mai khudko bhi maaf nahi kar pa rahi yaar"she says hugging her and again sobbing

"Dekho zainab kya hua theek se batao"zubia asks when Zainab's next statement leave zubia shocked

"Mama ko humari contract marriage ki baare mai pata chal gaya"she says and explains everything zubia's eyes go wide

"Mai ab vaha nahi rehna chahti hu zubia mai jab jab vaha rahungi mama ko mera dhoka yaad aayega , mai bhi pagal thi apne selfishness mai maine yein deal accept karli yein tak nahi socha ki sacch mai maine ek ladki ki zindagi barbaad kardi , pure parivaar ko ek dhoke mai baandh kar rakha "she says sobbing

"Tu Rona band kar yaar aur usme Teri konsi galti hai zainab dekh tune apni majboori mai uthaya yein faisla , arey ahad sir ko bhi sochna tha apni family ke baare mai , balke unhe sochna tha , jab unhe koi fark nahi pada to tu kyu ro rahi hai ha"zubia says making her understand but Zainab was not in the state

"Accha chal tune khana kha liya"she asks when she nods

"To chal soja "saying she leaves her in guest room

And zainab sleeps feeling tired after emotional breakdowns in morning she get's up and get's ready to start the day but she was looking so gloomy

On the other side in shah havelli:

The morning birds where chirping and ahad stirred at the sunlight and said

"Yaar zainab parda daal do yaar roshni aa rahi hai"thinking she is in room but he doesn't get any response

"Zainab"he calls and response so he gets up and looks to see the couch empty he moves towards the bathroom calling her but there was no one

He moves down shouting zainab no response but the family members assembled down looking at him was looking like a mad man

"Nadia yein tumhare bete ko kya hua subah subah uss ladki ka naam leke kyo chilla raha hai"aafreen asked confused

Even Nadia frowned at ahad thinking what's happening but she doesn't ask when adnaan says

"Kya hua ahad aise kyo chilla rahe ho zainab ka naam lekar "he asks when ahad says

"Aap mai se kisi ne zainab ko dekha"when everyone nod in negatively making him more nervous a fear grips in his heart

"Dekhiye please , please bataye aap mai se kisi ne zainab ko dekha hai please"he says in vulnerability that atleast on should positively nod making his fear go but all were silent he moves towards his mother and say

"Ammi , ammi zainab toh aap hi ke paas aati hai subah subah , usse apne dekha na ammi bolena please"he says as a tear escape from his eyes even nadia's eyes's soften at his son's state

While Aafiah smirk at his reaction

"Ahad kahi zainab bhag toh nahi gayi Ghar se"Aafiah says making ahad's eyes blood shot

"Shut up , Aafiah not a word against my wife warna sidha defamation case mai andar dhakel dunga aur fir bahar kabhi nikal nahi paogi "he says when aafreen warns ahad

"Ahad zubaan sambhal ke baat karo , meri naatin hai vo"when ahad moves up like a madman throwing everything he was getting his emotions were overpowering him.

"Zainab"he shouts throwing a show piece when he sees a white envelope with shaking hands he holds the letter and slowly opens it with a heavy heart , hoping what he is thinking should not be true

He opens and looks at the letter

To ahad sir,

Mai humesha sochti hu ki letters mai apne full emotions pour nahi kar sakti but may be I am doing today

Mujhe nahi pata kaha se shuru Karu aur kaha khatam Karu mai aapko jitni bhi baar shukriya kahu vo Kum hi hoga

Lekin sir , shayad humara Safar yahi tak tha apne meri zindagi bohot saari armaane puri ki mujhe ek family di aur bohot saari aisi aarman bhi pure kiye jiska aapko ilm nahi.meri zindagi mai khushiya bhari jab meri zindagi Puri tareke se khaali ho gayi.

Humesha Mera stand liya har ek saamne chahe vo ghar pe ya court mai ya kahi bhi , mere Daman pe kabhi sawal nahi uthane diye, par sir mai iss jhuthi zindagi mai nahi jee paungi mai aur Dhokha nahi de sakti aapki family ku , mujhe khud se ghinn aane lagi hai , mere dil mai humesha yein bhoj rehta hi ki maine kisi ladki se uski zindagi cheeni hai uska haq .

Dil Kai iss bhoj ke saath mai aage nahi badh sakti , mujhe meri ammi ka pyaar Dene vaali mama ka dil maine sab se zyada dukhaya jinhone mujhe itni izzat aur pyaar diya iss ghar mein.mujhe maaf kar dein sir

Lekin sir mai eik cheez zaroor kahungi , mama aap se bohot pyaar karti hai unka Dil rakhne ke liye hi aap nikah karle aur ek khushal zindagi guzare , mai apne problems ab khud hi handle kar lungi , aur please mujhe dhunde na.

Meri yahi dua rahegi humesha ki Allah aapki zindagi ko humesha khushal rakhe

Aapki,
Zainab

He held the letter tightly screaming
"Zainab"while tears where cascading from his eyes

"How dare u haa socha bhi kaise ki tumhari jagah mai kisi aur ladki ko de sakta hu ha , sirf tum meri biwi ho sakti ho agr tum nahi toh koi nahi zainab"he says while kissing th letter

"Aa jao meri jaan mar jaunga issi ghum aur dard mai "he says while holding her letter he immediately wipes his eyes and moves to washroom doing wuzu comes back and lays his prayer mat and start praying crying and asking Allah ,  to reunite him with his zainab.

And it's truth crying infront of ur creator almost makes ur pain dissapear a new determination forms inside him to find his zainab .

"Zainab mai aa raha hu , aur iss baar jab tumhe le aaunga na toh kabhi nahi jaane dunga"he says while moving down.

To be continued.