Fatal Affairs

Chapter 48

SA'NAI P.O.V.

I took a deep breath and got in my car. I had to go to my house today and grab some stuff. I could just go shopping but I actually wanted my comfort clothes so my huge comfy fluffy sweaters and sweat pants I needed those. I was mostly in Jai clothes or no clothes usually but I'm getting big and uncomfortable now.

I pulled up to my house and it was still in tact. I parked in the driveway and used the front door to go in. It was so empty and quiet in here. Didn't look like the house I once knew and loved. Right before I was about to go upstairs I heard knocking at the door. It scared me because I don't come here often if at all and I haven't been here in forever. Maybe it was a neighbor.

I opened the door and was met with disgust. She had the saddest look on her face and tears in her eyes. "Get the fuck off my doorstep bitch!" I said sternly trying to close the door in her face.

No, Nai wait! She pled trying to stop me from closing it.

What the fuck do you want? I yelled at my mother angrily.

I'm sorry! Sa'Nai I'm sorry! I feel so guilty about what I did learning that Winter got an abortion my first grandchild. And now you're pregnant! Please don't take this away from me. I'm sorry! I owe you the biggest apology. I want to be in your life and your baby life.

You wanna be in my life or you wanna have my life? Cause the way I was looking at it, you been fuckin my man for 5 years didn't give a shit about the consequences of what you were doing. Wasn't thinking about me one bit and because Winter got an abortion BECAUSE OF YOU, you think I'm suppose to let you around my child cause I'm pregnant cause you wanna be a grandma! Bitch please! It's taking everything in me not to call my husband right now and have him tear yo ass limb from limb. Get the fuck out my face.

It was a mistake Sa'Nai!

A mistake is one time maybe twice. No a mistake is not knowing he belonged to me and slept with him that's a mistake. But when you bluntly knew me and that man was together from the day we got together until the day we broke up YOU MADE A FUCKIN CHOICE! You chose to say fuck me, my relationship and what I had going on with him because you didn't care. Aren't you in love with him? Stand on that shit!

Sa'Nai, David is a good man...

A good man? A good man doesn't fuck his wife mother for 5 years straight having a relationship with her behind her back! I have a good man, a wonderful man. David couldn't compare to my husband in a million years. And the best part of it is I don't ever have to worry about him fuckin my mom! Because he loves me! He cherish the ground that I walk on. Even if I ever in life wanted to forgive you and give you another chance which will NEVER HAPPEN, he'd never allow you around his child.

So? What? This is it huh? We can never make amends? You will never forgive me for this? If you're so happy and moved on from David and married why can't I be in your life but most importantly my grand child?

Let me ask you something....if I had ever gotten pregnant by David do you think you would had stop fuckin him? To be a grandmother to my child?
She looked shocked for a second like she didn't wanna answer. "Exactly! You wouldn't have! You're the reason he never gave me a kid and thank god he didn't! Wanting to be in my child life is nasty work. You think you can do something so nasty and foul to me and because I'm having a child you can come back around and be in my child life. My husband is so wonderful I not even need a mother during this experience. Long as I have him in my sister I'll be just fine. You will never meet my child and will never be in the life. So get off my doorstep and get the fuck away from my house. Cause if I call him you will be dead and I want stop
Him!"

Sa'Nai....im sorry! And I know nothing I do or say can ever change that. I truly am sorry from the bottom of my heart. Me and David aren't together anymore from what we did to you. He hates his self and wishes he could just change everything and I do too. But just know baby I will be here for you. No matter what if you want me to or not. I will be here. Because I'm your mom and I love you and you mean the world to me.

Fuck you and David! I slammed the door so hard in her face it damn near knocked her on the ground.