I've never felt this way before. And I know I'll spend the rest of my life yearning for a love that will never happen. And you know what's the saddest part? I wanted it to be you, and I did everything I could so you would stay. But I ended up giving up on you because I was forced to. I just want to love you, freely. I want to tell everyone you're mine. I want to let everyone know who my beautiful girlfriend is.
If you ever miss me, I'll be waiting with open arms and an open heart. Please, believe me when I say this; I'll never get over you, no matter who I am with. I will always love you. I will always write about you, and I will always think of you.
I was thinking about the future. What if you get married? That will definitely happen, and sadly, I won't be the one marrying you. Do you remember what we planned? Two cats, two dogs. One golden retriever, one dachshund, one black cat, and one orange cat. I remember it, word for word, letter by letter. It replays in my head, over and over. I wish I could get rid of all these thoughts. I wish I could get rid of you. Can you please leave my mind? I need you, but I don't want you here. Not in my mind.
