HYUNG LOVE ME BACK |HEEJAKEHOON FF|

what is love?

*flashback*

" heeseung "?? Said , heeseung turned his head and saw his girlfriend standing beside him with worried eyes.

"Are you okay?" She asked.

"Chole" he whispered and look up in the sky feeling the night vibe.

" the Night is beautiful isn't " heeseung said and chole look up and saw the moon shining today and she nodded.

" it's silent peacful making me feel safe here" heeseung said and chole sit beside him on the grass.

"Chole why our fate always play opposite of our choice" heeseung said .

"Because whatever we have plan never mean to make in reality " chole said .

" look at me heeseung look how I thought how my plan meeting jaemin I thought it was my fate but in reality it's not I was the one who decided to love him I was the one who decided to destroy my own life .." chole said and heeseung look at her.

" you love him so much isn't?" Heeseung asked softly and chole smile.

"Love? I don't know anymore what is love..." chole said and look at her hands which covered in many bruises.

"Heeseung look at her hands he slowly take her hands and intertwined with his own hands".

" heeseung..." she whispered.

"You are fine safe with me"heeseung whispered.

" he will not harm you" heeseung said .

" what about you" she asked.

"You will protect me from him but what about your own wounds? What about your own pain? Who will protect you? " She said.

"My pain? My pain is nothing compared to what's yours...my pain is something you will never understand " heeseung said .

" chole look at him she saw the sadness on his eyes the pain on his eyes , something holding him inside something which he don't want to revel".

" Why did you break up with jake" she asked.

" I already say he hurt my brother "heeseung said

" chole chuckled "

"You might be fool me but you can't fool yourself " she said .

" I'm not fooling" he said .

" she smiled, and then leave his hand".

" heeseung you forgot I have brother I know what he feels I know what he was going through I saw the same reaction when my brother was facing having problems on his life and right now you have the same track in your life " she said and heeseung looked away.

" I will not force you heeseung but I want to say whatever happened between you and jake you should give him some time" she said .

" you will not understand chole" heeseung said .

" you will not understand what I'm feeling right now! " heeseung said.

" I'm feeling useless...I'm feeling I'm not enough for him for everyone...I feel I don't deserve to be love by anyone...I'm scared...I'm scared to lose my love one
I was kid when my mom marry sunghoon father it was new to me...i was too small to understand thaf my father will never going to come i was small to feel i have new family its not easy to accept anything ...nobody understand me ! Nobody will understandmy feeling what im feeling im fake im fake person to show fake love...i lost myself " heeseung said.

" jake ...he's my first love ...but sunghoon he's my everything my heartbeat my life...I can't hurt him ...I.. I don't want to break their hearts...but..."tears rolled down from his cheek.

"I already did" he whispered in low tone.

" all I want is love hyung is it too much for me?? Am I really greedy ?? People who I love always leave me first my mother and now jake..and you are rejecting me too" sunghoon said and crying.

"Please hyung I can't leave without you please hyung come back to me! Hyung please don't push me " jake said and begging.

"He feel a hand on his cheek and he look at his side, chole looking at him worried eyes wiped his tears".

" heeseung pulled her closer and hugged her putting his head on his chest in brust in tears".

"I'm sick chole I'm sick for falling in love with my own brother I'm sick for falling in love with my brother friend...I'm sick loving to person in same time I'm sick that I can't even stop my heart I'm bad person I don't deserve them I don't deserve their love I don't deserve anyone ....I'm bad...I'm monster..." heeseung said and crying.

" heeseung" she comforting him.

"All night he let his emotions all out infront her brust in tears confess his feelings, he show his emotion no one saw him like this before".

"Love is beautiful hee when you love someone you will forget everything but focused on one person, you are not sick hee you have beautiful heart it's not wrong to love two person in same time I can't blame you sunghoon is good person anyone and anybody can love with him jake..jake the special ability people love to attract towards him I don't know him or your brother but I know you heeseung" she said.

" whether you love sunghoon or jake I don't Care as long as you happy I'm happy to that's what love say" she thought in her mind and smiled.

"You are not sick ! You are good person heeseung you save me from jaemin you help me to move on from him when I need someone the most you come in my life as my guardian angel" she whispered.

"You fight for me you fight everyone for me I need a person who will be my angel and I got you heeseung " she said.

" love doesn't see gender heeseung , love is a beautiful thing when you fall in love your whole world will change. Don't blame yourself like that, If you having problems then fight! Fight for your love tell them what you feel " she said .

"Then you will get what you want in your life" .

"She rubbing his back".

"I'm always with you heeseung" she whispered.

*end flashback*