My God,
I'm so sorry.
I hate everything.
I hate myself,
I hate my parents,
Family,
Friends,
And just people in general.
I'm not a good person.
I'm so sorry.
I love my friends,
But I also hate them.
Like, don't get me wrong.
I finally have good friends,
But I also hate them in a way.
Why?
I don't know.
At times,
I just feel this sort of resentment.
What's crazy too, is that my friends
Haven't done anything to piss me off.
So I'll just randomly feel like that.
Shit, I have the most pathetic crush
On someone. (♡)
So, I'm just weird.
I mean, everyone has bad days,
And no one's happy all the time,
But I just..
I envy them for some reason.
I know that's a me problem,
I know that.
Which is why I don't say anything.
I guess I just...
I don't even know.
I think my depressions too deep,
That I just can't speak anymore.
I don't do anything anymore.
I'm just a living, breathing thing,
Waiting for someone or something
To end this misery.
Every day is the same,
It's just shit.
I don't have a reason to live.
It pisses me off when someone says,
"Oh just wait!"
Or some retarded shit like that,
Motherfucker,
I'm tired.
I don't wanna wait anymore.
I need some positive shit
To happen,
And it needs to happen quickly,
And if not,
I'm dead in a few days.
I can't deal with this crap anymore,
"Oh, I understand you,
You're not alone."
That's total bullshit.
No one understands each other,
It's not the same for two people
So don't even try with that bullshit.
Honestly, when I'm told that,
I wanna punch them in the face.
I'm going to eventually.
Just fuck off.
God, everything irritates me now.
