☆⌗“Stop it!”☆
.𖥔 ݁ ˖๋ ࣭ ⭑𔘓𓂃 ࣪˖ ִֶָ๋࣭ ⭑𖤐⭒๋࣭ ⭑
I get it,
Believe me, I do.
I know that dealing with someone
Who constantly apologizes
Is tiring and annoying.
I get that.
I know that most of the time
I don't need to apologize,
But I still do.
Why?
I don't know.
It has just always been a habit of mine.
It's always been something I do.
I know that I don't need to,
But I just feel a strong urge to do so.
It's honestly kinda funny, because
Despite your words,
That I guess you call "comfort,"
I don't feel better.
You telling me,
"You don't need to apologize"
Doesn't help.
Well, in a small way I guess it does,
But not really.
I don't feel comforted,
I don't feel better.
If anything, I feel the need to apologize.
I feel the need to apologize
For over apologizing.
I know you don't like it when I apologize
So I'm kinda just stuck there.
Feeling shitty.
I don't want to make you feel bad
For trying to make me feel better
And failing
So I won't say anything.
I really hope you know that I'm trying
I'm trying for you,
To not apologize so much.
I feel it doesn't seem like that, though.
I feel like I can't break this habit
And I can't make you feel better
By me apologizing less.
In all honesty,
I don't know what the words really do.
I mean,
I hardly know what they mean.
I've always just felt the insane urge
To apologize, so I did.
9.5 times out of 10,
I didn't need too,
But I still do.
I've been like that my entire life,
Over a decade.
I'm never apologized to.
When someone wrongs me,
They don't apologize.
What do those words even do?
What purpose do these words hold??
I feel like they do nothing.
They don't mean anything.
I'm sorry, I'm sorry
I can't even tell what I'm sorry for,
So please don't ask.
I wanna say ignore it,
But that'll make me feel worse.
I don't know what those words mean.
"I'm sorry."
I'm never told them,
Even in situations where people tell me
That I should hear them,
I don't.
I am not sure why,
I'm like this.
I hope it stops.
It annoys me,
And I know it's hard for you.
Thanks for putting up with it, though.
It means a lot,
Which sounds kind of stupid,
But I'm stupid,
So the words that I say,
Are going to sound stupid too.
