soulmates connections book 2

5

"Ok... ok.. please, I can't please let me come Ali." Jin pleads

"Really, you can't take any more denials. 3 is your limit?"

"No.. no, I can't. im so desperate right now. I have too many feelings running through me for tae... for you.. please, please let me come.."

"You know what that means jin the only way you're coming is inside me, right?"

"Yes.. yes, please let me feel you. i need to be inside you, please."

"But first, you need to talk that the only way you get to come," I tell him

"Please... Ali... please.. let me come. I need to feel you." He begs again

"I've told you, you need to talk first before I let you because I know you avoid it again after you release so are you going to talk or do I have to edge you again."

"No... please, not again.. I'll talk ok please no more edging."

"Ok, then start explaining what happened."

"I.. it's just like namjoon said. I had the soul bond with you, and I was so desperate to be with you.. but then the thing that happened with tae and me ending up kissing him,I didn't want him thinking I didn't want him, and I just did it."

He continued when I never responded.

"I didn't think it would turn me into what I was.. I was ok with jimin and tae being with you.. but jimin, being near tae.. It turned me possessive of him like he was mine and mine alone, and jimin couldn't touch him.. but with tae added in and the pull of both bonds.. I couldn't control it I was so desperate for both of you it's like I couldn't get enough of you but I needed him aswell to have you both and I would never have hurt you if I didn't kiss tae having both connections together is hard.."  he sighed.

"I want him so desperately that I need to soul bond even if I'm not ready, and I only just kissed him.. but you, I hurt you, and I feel ashamed and disgusted in myself for hurting you.. I love you, Ali, and I'd never forgive myself if I did some serious damage, but I still have both pulls only it's not as bad with tae as I had that release with you after the connection with him and when I finally came down I snapped out of it."

I look at him listening to his explanation.

"I do want you, Ali. im just scared.. I'm scared I'll hurt you again." He said.

"You won't do you still feel possessive of tae?" I ask

"No.. that stopped when I snapped out of it.. I think it was just the initial connection and having both bonds and the emotions running through me it turned me into that person, and im never.. ever having 2 bonds again after this is done."

"Ok.. but you understand jin, even though you hurt me last night.. it's not stopping me from wanting you.. right, I love you, your my soulmate, and I know you never intentionally hurt me.. it was the bond the possessiveness you needed to release to feel us. but I don't want that to scare you away from me, jin. I need you.. we all need you, your our soulmate jin."

"I know.. I'm sorry, sorry for last night and the way I've been acting today, I just lost control, and when I came out of it and realised what I'd done.. I was so ashamed at myself so angry that I did that to you.. I'm sorry."

"It's ok, babe.. I understand, but I want you. Now and in the future, if you want me to, if you want that release now, you need to let me ride you so you can come. Will you let me?"

He looks at me.. I can still see the hesitation in his eyes, but he soon nods, knowing it was the only way he'd be able to.

I lean in and kiss him.