Facts

Fact 2

So fact 2 I have a lot of things to say but at the same time I don't ugh. First, my parents always argue everyday for everything because he is nonchalant and don't care about anything (his family basically) and only his family because he is the sweetest man with his friends and everyone else.. He still drinks a lot and even more than before, and now he keeps it as an excuse for not being present. Such a dog. I hope they will break up fast I'm waiting, but I know my mom got enough and she will leave him finally aaaaaaa peace and no screams. I'm feeling so weird now because I act so nonchalant about a lot of things too,I talked with a girl basically almost a friend I guess so we used to text everyday and I randomly stopped because no patience idk she got on my nerves. I have another friend too, I have known her for like 4 years? Or more? We text everyday but sometimes even if I see her message I reply like 10 hours later ;( lazy to reply. Same with a guy He texts me everyday and he always sends the first message and I think he gets annoyed by sending the first message. He stopped texting me today to see if I sent him something;(
Conclusion: I didn't.
He still sent me a message tho for asking if I forget him. Like dude no I didn't forget you I just don't care about you?
Conclusion: I have friends who always text me but I still feel so alone.
I want to block them but at the same time I know I'm gonna fucking regret it because I already did it to someone. And even if I acted like that to him I missed him for some months. I still feel bad cuz I blocked him even tho he was the sweetest boy. But at the same time it feels right because talking with him was not good either. In the back of my mind,I hope he is still okay.
One good new, I beat my friend on a 1v1 blade ball😛. He is the only one I accept to call with, without any problems tho.
Ah and for conclusion of the last thing of fact number one,yes I did distanced myself from the others. I was surprised because Winnie is always the first to notice when I'm not okay. I'm not surprised about the fact he care,but about he's the first. We still call basically on the weekend to play together and even if I act nonchalant saying it I like it. I can't stop laughing and I have so many fun anecdotes about our calls. He invited me into a horror game telling me "I know it and it's so easy and not scary" I followed him in the game and then the monster came catch him😭 he screamed like a little girl. My ears literally die but it's still kinda funny to hear him get scared. He is always the one who sent me videos literally everydays, something it's about basic things but most of them are cute videos like "us" with two characters I LIKE. And he knows it's not dumb not dumb. He don't know it but I'm always happy when I wake up with him sending me a video, but get sad when it's a basic thing. Disappointed at least. I got two news books too I love it even tho I only started one, named "you can heal your life" about psychology and life basically.. Ah and I got a problem with one of my acc so to add my best friend another time on my phone, I let my phone to him for searching his acc and everything, tho I didn't think about the fact he did check some other things on my phone.. Anyway, I don't mind until it's my gallery😭 When I think that I'm so alone and I have nobody to talk to when I feel sad,that one friend always get on my mind because he would tell me "WHAT ABOUT ME" bear bear.. I already blocked a lot of ppl because I'm lazy to talk with, at the same time I just don't care,and I still don't want to get attached to someone else too >-< oop but maybe I did in fact already get attached to Winnie because when we don't calls it make me or sad,or mad. Same when he doesn't send me a video. I'm not sure if he have Wattpad too but I think yes he have because he wanted to read the other story I made so probably he have it if he didn't installed but I don't think so. But NORMALLY 99% sure about it he is NOT gonna see this because such a shame he doesn't know English that far andddddd he will not get the notification.
I guess.
I hope? But nahh he is too bad in English for it. 🙈 Ohhh and I know that he still remembers my birthday and a lottttt of things about me even though he have such a fucking bad memory (like me basically)
I'ma gave nicknames to some ppls I'ma talk about cuz what if ONE of them found out,at least they will not know about WHO I'm talking exactly😔 ( Even if Winnie is in fact a nickname but at the same time is not because from the first day I called him like that, everyone started called him Winnie too, so he is not mysterious with his nickname ugh) so my best friend is gonna be cherry because I remember called him cherry like 2 years ago or something.