How tiring... my eye lids slowly open up and I see the bright shining sun lighting up the room.
"How annoying" I thought to myself.
As I walk down the stairs, I already feel tired.. do I really have to go to school?...
After lazily getting ready for school, I get in the car and sigh.
"Why did I forgot to study last night?..."
Exams... I could feel my self scoffing as I already know what might be my results. It doesn't have to be great but I could get mocked for it. My friends are quite smart and I'm envious, I don't work as hard as them. I should work harder...
As I went to school, I tied up my hair and looked at myself. This is why people use filters... I look like a rat.
I went to the classroom and saw my classmates chatter as they sit down on their respective seats. I looked at the door since it had a paper that shows where we were supposed to be seated at. I sat in the middle column, second row.
How annoying... I sat near the boys who always chattered and unserious in class...
The exam started. It was relatively easy because it was english. I don't feel confident or okay... I'd get a 40/55 at most... after 1 hour and 20 minutes had passed I was already done with my paper.
I should re-check it....
After checking it multiple times I feel that I should be okay... but it's only my opinion. How I write letters and summaries are bad.
I feel tired... I put my hands on the table and lay down my head. It's comforting... it feels like I'm alone in this darkness but yet it feels so lonely. I lift my head up after a while and saw that the clock was slow... why can't this exam finish faster?...
The teacher suddenly announced that the exam was over and I tried to hide my grin from overwhelming enjoyment. I was dismissed and quickly went home. Aah... finally! I can go back to my "only safe place"....
[ time skip ]
I flopped myself on the bed and buried my head in my pillow. Hah... I feel so comfortable... I put my blanket on top of me and snuggle with a doll that was perfect size for me to cuddle.
My eyes suddenly feel heavy when suddenly everything turns black...
"how comforting."
I thought as I slowly drift away to sleep...
{ A Dream }
What?... a building?... it's so high up and empty... I can't even see the ground... it's like I'm above the clouds. But... my body is trembling...
"What if I fall?"
I turned pale... my worries had worsened. Where am I?... my head feels heavy... I'm dizzy. What kind of clothes are these?... i didn't go to bed in these clothes. But as soon as I realized that I was wearing a patients clothes, I suddenly slipped.
"I'm scared... I can't feel anything... am I falling?"
The wind brushed through my hair, my headache suddenly disappeared and all the stress and worries disappeared in the air. It's as if I'm frozen in place, I'm too scared even to scream. I didn't even reach out to anything and try to save myself. I feel water droplets float from my eyes. Tears fly in the wind as I fall down.
All I can do right now is cry.
Why does this all seem so familiar?...
"It's like I've been through this before-"
"ACK!" I woke up and gasped for air. What was that?! That dream was so vague and vivid to me... I should've forgotten a dream in seconds but I can't forget that feeling of falling down...
I suddenly felt chills in my body. I sat up straight with my hand in my head, I sigh in relief...
"I'm glad that was all a dream."
To be continued.
