Little Big I'll love you the same A TARLOS LOVE STORY

carlos's pov

Hi there my names Carlos Reyes and I've been a little since I turned 14 when my dad was shot and murdered in are house and I'll admit I miss him a lot but my mom doesn't and to be honest I've pretty much figured out that I'm the unwanted middle child I'm the only boy in the family and mom doesn't like that she wanted another girl but instead got a her words not mine horrible useless disgusting son that would be better if he was never born and I'll admit it hurts especially when I'm in little space she'll hit scream and throw things at me until she leaves the house to go to a club with her friends and I don't really have a good connection with my sisters ether there always spoiled and think they can get whatever they want just by throwing a fit and almost immediately my mother gives in Sarah the oldest is very entitled she wants anything and everything and loves to bully me along with Emily the youngest who is even worse than Sarah and then of course my mom's boyfriend Phillip Jonson who is the worst person ever he hits me kicks me screams at me and ra pes me until I'm screaming for him to stop and he calls me fat and doesn't let me eat unless it's anything my siblings don't like and they make me share a dog bowl with the one thing that's mine my dog storm he's there for me when I'm mostly in little space he cuddles with me and makes me feel loved oh and did I mention that I'm 20 years old you might be thinking Carlos if it's so bad then just leave your a grown a ss adult oh how I wish I could leave but my mother is using me being little to her advantage saying I'm unstable and I'll be safer here and I really think the only reason she hasn't kicked me out yet is because every year she'll get about 2000 dollars a year because she's being such a good mother and raising a horrible child and because she's a controlling bit ch and also there's this weird thing that happens every summer every month for about a week or so and I'm constantly getting ha rd and in a lot of pain and that's coming up so I need to pack a bag and leave before it hits or else phillip will ra pe me again like last time.