It seems the game we challenged each other to failed to determine a winner or loser because neither of us could bear to hear what happened after our game of love ended. Have you ever tried recording yourself singing and then listening back? What was it like hearing your own voice, which sounds so much like a duck's?
Add twenty times the embarrassment I felt with Got because our voices were so far from singing. Then there were the words we never used to say. When we listened to the recording, Got and I blushed and agreed that...
"We could wear the rings stacked, that would be nice."
And then all four rings were on our fingers, and none of them needed to go in a box. Weird, huh?
"I can't believe you said that when we were teasing each other."
Got said, who was driving. I imagined her mind was still on that audio clip, as was mine, but I chose to remain silent.
"We agreed that we wouldn't talk about it again,"
I said, raising my hand to cover my ears.
"I can't take it, aahhh!"
"I can't take it either, but it was weird in a good way, thinking about when you told me to finish eating."
"Got!"
Honestly, I wasn't oblivious to what had happened, but after we got through that love game, we both acted like we'd forgotten everything we'd said. It was like our parents didn't even remember when they brought us into existence. Once it's gone, it's gone.
Starting over is always more fun.
"Are you mad?"
Still silent and not wanting to say anything, Got reached out and patted me lightly. I turned away, not wanting to meet her eyes, acting all pouty to show that I didn't want to talk about it anymore. I really couldn't take it.
"No need to be mad. It's not like you said it all by yourself. I even told you I wanted to moan out loud."
"Didn't you feel weird when you said that?"
"It's just the two of us."
"No, I don't want to talk about it. If you don't stop, I'll get mad. No, I'll hate you. I've never hated anyone in my life, so don't even try."
"You hated me once, don't you remember?"
Sigh!
I shuddered when I heard that. Memories from months ago came rushing back like a tape rewinding to the climax. As soon as I remembered, I clamped my mouth shut tightly and looked at Got with pain in my eyes.
"I... I didn't mean it."
"How could you not mean that? I was the one who wanted you to hate me."
"Why would you want that?"
"Because I didn't want to see you suffer with me leaving."
"And then you had to suffer watching me hate you, right?"
"That's still better than watching you cry. I'd rather be the one who's suffering."
Got has always been like this... she's been like this since before I was cursed to hate her, and everything that happened after that. It frustrates me because I remember every scene, every moment, like it happened yesterday. So, if we were arguing to make me hate her, can she at least help me forget what she did?
Back when I found out Got was going to die... If you remember, back then Get gave an interview on a show and said that it was Got who got pregnant and had an abortion. Honestly, I didn't believe her, because Got didn't know anything about things like that. I proved it by living with her.
