The Space Between us

Chapter 19

Loren's Pov

It's been 3 weeks since that ganap, Ewan ko ba imbes na gumaan Ang pakiramdam ko mas lalong bumigat. That's the 2nd time I saw Pia was hurt emotionally kitang kita iyon sa mukha Niya. The first time is Yung Kay Nancy.

I'm leaving today, I need some peace of mind at kailangan ko Rin mag pahinga. Gulong gulo na ako eh, kailangan ko Rin ingatan at alagaan Ang Sarili ko.

I need to move forward, at kung ang magpakalayo layo Muna Ang dapat ay Yun Ang gagawin ko. I already told my friends na aalis ako except Pia, I never contacted her since that ganap sa Bahay Niya.

Mamayang hapon Ang flight ko and it's already 12 noon. I was busy packing my things when I heard a doorbell, sunod sunod iyon na parang sisirain Ang doorbell ko

"Sandali!" Sigaw ko at tumatakbong pumunta sa pinto

Binuksan ko ito and to my surprise it was Pia. Habang nasa likod nito Ang apat Leni, Risa, Sara, and Imee.

"I'm sorry Loren, pinigilan Naman Namin kaso nagpumilit eh" Saad ni Imee

Lumapit saakin si Pia at halatang umiiyak ito

"Y-You're leaving?" Her voice cracked

I was just staring at her, forcing myself not to shed a tear. Ayokong mag iyakan kami Dito.

"Yes" tipid Kong sagot

"W-why? Ganyan ka ba kagalit saakin para umalis ka? K-kung Hindi pa ako nag kulit Kila Risa Hindi ko pa malalaman eh" Saad nito na patuloy sa pagpatak ng luha

Oh Pia if you only knew how much I want to hug you right now. Mahal na mahal kita at walang mag babago Doon. But i need to take care of myself too.

"Pia I'm not mad at you, I'm doing this para sa Sarili ko. To forget and move forward" Saad ko trying to compose my voice from crying

"Loren you were always there for me when I'm moving forward or healing from the pain that Nancy caused. You told me before that were always in this together, nakalimutan mo na ba yun?" Tanong nito

I close my eyes tightly and took a deep breath.

"I know, but Pia can't you see? I can't stand myself looking how happy you are with someone else. Pia nasasaktan parin ako and I need some space and time para ayusin din Ang Sarili ko" I said

"Nasasaktan din Naman ako Loren ah? Hindi lang ikaw, do you think your silent treatments are making me calm and okay everyday?. Loren Hindi, I'm stressing out every single damn time when I think of you!" Saad nito

Umiling lang

"Pia you listen to me okay? Babalik parin Naman ako eh. I just need some time" ngiti ko Dito

When I saw her burst into tears Doon na Rin nag simulang tumulo Ang luha ko

I hate do this pero this is the only way. Kailangan ko Rin umusad

From my peripheral vision I saw the gals watching us habang nag pupunas Rin Sila ng Luha. I'm going to London at doon ako mag papahinga and to fix myself also. Hindi ko sinabi sa kanila kung saan Ang punta ko because they'll surely follow me.

I looked at Pia who was still crying and just looking at me with her wet eyes

"J-just don't go Loren, I need you" Saad nito

I just cried and touch her face

"Pia you need to learn without me, you already had Adriel okay? You will find the best comfort and love from him" pilit Kong ngiti Dito kahit gusto Kong sabihin na ako dapat Yun eh