Heart wants what it wants

Hallucination?

Ash meets me outside the mall exactly after 15 mins as she said. Someone is being punctual to impress her new boss I taught to myself.as she approaches me she tackles me with a hug "can't breathe " I mange to tell her from her death grip.

"Sorry!! But guess what?" She asks smiling like Cheshire Cat.well if that didn't tell me that she got the job then I don't know what does . Still I play dumb and ask " what ?" " I got the job!!! Can you believe it" she shouts grabbing few attention of the onlookers

" Congrats!!! That's awesome ." I say hugging her. "So let's celebrate " I say . " Nope" she says by popping p. "whhhhyyy?" I whine like a child or even more . "well tomorrow I have to be at my office at 9 so I can't have an hangover and by tomorrow you have to decide what you want to do." she gives me a pointed look. I just nod at that not wanting to be on her bad side.

"What have you been upto all day ? " She ask changing her topic. That reminds of what all happened today which I had totally forgot by looking at her face.

" Babe you won't believe me what happened . I met Niall from one direction " I say . After few min standing there She checks my temperature and pulse before asking " did you eat anything that a stranger gave you ?" Totally concerned. Is she for real . My inner voice ask which I ignore.

"No. Ash I am serious I spilled coffee on him and he was such a gentleman. God you should have seen Him in his  suit it was like God as taken his time to sculpt that creature I tell you and then ..." she stops me from my rant by saying "I knew you were obsessed with the band but not this much that you are  imagining things"

"Ash I am serious he gave me his number wait" I say take my phone and search in my contact list . But I didn't find his number. Then I taught maybe he has stored it in a different name so I searched but I found none. " See!!" She says am I losing my mind I ask myself

"But ash it felt so real . And I pinched myself I felt the pain so it is real right.?" I ask losing my mind."Tia according to Indian psychology it says that if you want something to happen and strongly wish for it to . Your mind creates the image and even the pain which you felt"she says trying to convince me.

" Are you trying to tell me that I am losing my mind?" I ask getting pissed at her wrong assumption "no T I am not . your stressed about the things happened in your past so I think your mind is planning for a get away." She try's to explain " and more over don't you thing fan would have noticed Him walking around Come on they are biggest band in the world " and after this sentence i am totally convinced that i need a doctor

" Forget about what happened in your past .You have a bright future think about that and I am sure after you decide what you want to do and you will be busy that these type of things won't  happen" she try to reassure me. " Thanks ash for coming with me I donno what I would have done without you " I say and i truly meant it .

"You can't get me off your back that easily " she shows me her tongue and winking at the same time 😜.i just nod at that.

"Come  on let's get you home we have to get settled ." She says I just look at her confused "your things are still In the suitcase " she points out. Oh man!!!

We make our way to our new home. Ash was going on and on about her new job . But my mind was filled with many things did my mind really do that? Why it felt so real ? And my mind and heart was having there own battle. Mind was with the theory ash gave but my heart wasn't . It was stubborn has hell and was not baking out. People say heart always speaks the truth. So whom should I believe heart or my mind?

And on the other side I was guilty for what I did to my parents thinking about it I feel ashamed of myself I donno how they are facing it. I miss them. But I do know what will happen if I go back so I don't want to.ash interrupts me from my thought s by saying "go freshen up I ll prepare something for us "I just nod at that and make my way to my room.

After freshening up and changing to something more comfortable I think about my hometown .So I did the only thing that came  to my mind was that to call the number which I am so familiar with "hello" comes the reply and I cut the call for two reason one is that my heart was beating so fast that I was afraid I may  my have a heart attack and second is that what do I say.Maybe I was hallucinating or was I ?