Not Meant To Be

Prologue

Then I fell in love and everything went to hell .
      _ Peter Carey

The heart follows its own compass, often leading us in unexpected directions.  Sometimes the most guarded individuals find themselves disarmed by the purest of souls.  It seems that even the most skilled players can be outmatched by the game of love. Perhaps this unforeseen connection is a chance for growth and a new perspective.  Only time will reveal where this newfound vulnerability will lead. Always chasing that fleeting feeling, never wanting to settle down.  Commitment was a cage, love a trap I was determined to avoid. Figured I was too broken to be fixed, better to just keep moving. One-night stands and fleeting moments, that was my comfort zone. Guess some of us are just wired a little differently. Everything changed when she came into my life.. It felt like a burning passion in my heart, and the only thing that could soothe it was holding her in my arms. I really hated her for making me feel this way. The only thought that came to my mind was denial and to avoid her at all cost. Sometimes life requires us to make difficult choices, choices that might not reflect our true feelings.  Maintaining appearances can be important, even when it feels like a betrayal of our hearts.  The weight of such secrets can be heavy, a burden we carry within.  Yet, we often endure for the sake of something larger than ourselves.  The truth may be hidden, but it never truly disappears.  It lingers in the silences and the stolen glances.  And perhaps, one day, the circumstances will change, and the truth can finally be revealed.  Until then, we hold onto hope, knowing that our true feelings will eventually find their way to the surface.
I was deeply troubled and emotionally scarred in numerous ways. My life was enveloped in darkness until she appeared. Her mere presence brought solace and improved my situation, even without any explicit actions on her part. She was the calm to my storm. Her presence brought a stillness to the chaos that raged within me.  Like a lighthouse in a raging sea, she offered guidance and solace. Her gentle spirit had a way of soothing my troubled mind. With her by my side, I felt grounded and secure. Her unwavering support gave me the strength to weather any storm. She was my anchor in the midst of life's uncertainties. Unfortunately, my negative tendencies have had a detrimental impact on the positive aspects of my life.

There are many things about my past that I keep private, and only those closest to me were aware of them. I am ruthless, arrogant,  egotistical, psychotic, pessimistic, rude and overall a demonic person.
Nobody could handle me, they said.  I brought the chaos, turned things upside down, lived life on my own terms.  Rules?  Who needed 'em!  Then she walked in, cool as a summer breeze, and suddenly everything changed. My world shifted on its axis. All the noise faded away, and all I could see was her.  She was the calm in my storm, the light in my darkness. And for the first time, I craved something more, something real, something... different.  She saved me from my dark place but only to leave.
My father always said that everything happens for a reason. May be she came into my life just to show me the right path and get me out of the deep dark hole.

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A/N :  This is the prologue guys . I hope you all will like it . So stay tune for fisrt chapter .

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