the boy with drained eyes

his eyes could tell stories

I remember your sweet eyes

your sweet face

your soft hands

and holding them like it was our last day

and your black hair

running my fingers through it

as we watched those crime shows

it hurts to think about it now

but I remember how much I truly loved it

I dont think you know how much i loved it and cherished you and all those moments

I wish your eyes didnt look at me that way

that last day

that cold

gloomy day

all I could feel was that pain

the pain I never wanted to feel again

but it happened

it hasnt gone away since

no matter what I do

all I can think of

is those cold drained eyes

and the cold tune of your beautiful

but haunting voice

all I wanted was to touch your face

and see you smile

but all I can do is remember

and those memories are starting to

lose their color

and everyday 

they get foggy and foggyier

I don't wanna lose those memories

because they are all I have left

but they disapear

they fog

just like that gloomy day

I wish you knew how much 

I love you

but its her who u will chose

never me

all because of my past

and I wasnt good enough

and your eyes drained 

not only you

but me

I just wanna go back

back to the good times

back to that gloomy day

but I cant

and I know you dont want that

but maybe that day wouldnt have been

so drained

maybe your eyes

your beautiful soiled eyes

would of been full of color

or maybe it wouldnt have mattered

I just wish you knew how i felt

I wish you would care

but I just have to hold onto 

the last peaces of our memories

while I can

but deep down I know

you just wanted to be loved

but I wanted to be too

but all that matters now is

you can smile

with her the girl with M in her name

the girl that is a purple sky

while me,

the girl that has a red-blue sky

just waits

even though you told me red was your favorite color

I guess you lied

it was always purple.