finding light in the darkness (heartstopper fan fic)

Drunk.

Tw: smoking, abuse, alcohol, sh, bd

Nick pov
I'm in the shower now, feeling fine. All of a sudden, my mood swings have been really bad lately, and it's all because of this stupid mental illness. I wish I could just get rid of it, but I can't, and if I take that medication, I'm just numb and feel like I'm a robot with no emotions.

I hop out of the shower now and rap a tole around my waist as I look in the mirror I am discussed I have scars on my upper arms and you can just see a copel of the faint lines on my left wrist. I have been clean for almost 4 months, which is an improvement I gusse that's what evryone says to me.

Time skip

It's now 5pm, and I have finally decided to leave my room after hiding for the past 4 hours. As I'm about to open my door, I hear a light knocking on my door. I open it, and Josh is stood there with his shoes on and car keys in one hand.
"You wanna come for a quick drive?" Josh asks me as I stand there emotionless.
"Sure, where are you going?" I reply.
"Just heding down to the off-licence bring some money if you want anything meet me at my car in 5 minutes" he says, walking off.