Shades of Denial

Prologue

R-18 | SPG

I gasped for air as I felt his tongue inside me. This is the first time I've ever felt this way. I've dated some guys before, but they would just skip the foreplay and shove it in there without even checking if I was wet enough to take them in without hurting myself.

"W-Wait! It's weird!"

He looked at me, still feeding himself down there. "Weird? It's not weird."

Napaliyad ako. My eyes widened when he wrapped his fingers around my rod. It feels so fucking weird, from front to back. The sensation is too much that I cannot even hold back my moans.

"Ahhh... please... h'wag diyan-"

"I don't care," he uttered.

Nagulat ako nang tumayo siya. He took off his pants and fuck... gusto ko ng tumakbo! I don't even know if I'm going to be able to take that fucking monstrous shaft!

Before I could even protest, he put both my legs on his right shoulder, looking at me with so much desire. "How do you like it? Rough or passionate?"

I bit my lower lip. "You think I can take that?!"

He chuckled. He shoved my toe into his mouth, sensually teasing me. "There, there. Of course, you can fully take mine. We'll take it slow, hmm?"

Binato ko siya ng unan. "Stop it! Marumi 'yan—" He cut me off. "It's not."

Kinuha niya ang rubber sa drawer at dahan-dahang isinuot. "Let's make sure you won't have a stomachache later."

I covered my face with a pillow while he continued chuckling. Nakakatawa para sa kanya kasi siya naman ang babayo at hindi ang masasaktan!

He spread the lubricant using his two fingers, slowly fingering my butt, I can't fully describe his facial expression—he's too focused, but there's something more... he looks amused... aroused.

He's moving his fingers as slowly as he can that I almost tear up. I had lots of trauma from my previous relationships. Hindi ko alam na may ganito pala. Na pwede pa lang walang pilitan na mangyari. Na kaya naman pa lang hindi maging agresibo.

I used to think that I was being treated poorly in the past because I'm gay, disgusting, and ugly. Why is he making me feel like this? I knew that this is just a one-night stand, and that he would probably ignore me the next day because he finds me dirty and unbelievable. Why...? Why does a part of me want him not to avoid me, to continue looking at me with those hungry eyes?

I went back to reality when he started his slow movements. "Fuck, It's tight."

I moaned. "I-It's too big... ahhh..."

He put his hand on my abdomen, pressing his bulge that's very evident since I'm too thin. His pace became faster as he moaned about how good it felt inside me.

"Ohhh... shit, shit, shit!"

I tried to hold back my moans, but it was getting harder each time he pulled out and quickly shoved it back in. He spread my legs apart and kept going.

Kinuha niya ang kamay ko at inilagay sa kahabaan naming dalawa, wanting me to stroke them both. "I-I'm cum—"

He kissed me roughly, biting my bottom lip, asking for permission to enter. Nanginig ako nang marating ang rurok. He kept his pace while kissing me, slowing down as he came, making me almost lose my sanity.

He pulled away, a worried expression painted on his face when he saw how much I was panting. He pulled me into a hug, massaging my back. "Hush, breathe in... breathe out..."

"Want some water?" tanong niya nang kumalma ako.

I just nodded. I watched him get off the bed, his muscles on his back flexing as he walked to the kitchen.

Bumalik siyang may dalang baso ng tubig. He passed it to me and sat on the edge of the bed. The silence was too loud, parang walang nangyaring kababalaghan.

"Mr. Jillian, I hope this won't ruin how we act professionally in the company. Please, continue being professional."

He excused himself and locked himself in the bathroom to take a quick shower. Pagkalabas ay kinuha lang niya na ang mga gamit niya't umalis na.

What the fuck? Act professional? You bullshit! As if I could still act like how we used to after you did this to me!