grow through it

"go through it to grow through it"

9:18 pm

i can see the battle
that is transpiring within you
and you are losing

10:24 pm

you've grown tired
of putting all of your energy
into someone who doesn't appreciate it

you've grown tired
of trying so hard to hold onto someone
who continues to push you away

you've grown tired
of trying
of loving
of existing

3:46 am

you chose to succumb
to your demons
and now they possess
your mind and your soul
controlling you
as if you're a puppet
but you've become numb to all of this
you're a prisoner
inside your own mind

4:13 am

he tried to inflict fear
upon you
but he underestimated your will
little did he know
that you're the one
he should've feared

2:02 pm

i find it inspiring
that you continue to try again

12:31 am

your scars
tell a story
and i couldn't help
but read it again

2:26 am

i see how hard you try
to blow out the flame
that he lit in your heart

- you are not the villain that he has made you out to be

5:06 am

he built a home
inside of your head
but he overstayed his welcome
now you're begging him to leave
which feels like screaming
while underwater

- exhausting & pointless

7:38 am

he’ll never understand
how often you cry yourself to sleep
or how loud you scream into your pillow
you hate him
but you love him
you hate that you love him

8:21 pm

i wish you knew
how beautiful you are
maybe if you did
you wouldn't settle for men like him

- you deserve to receive the love that you give out

11:08 pm

he has no idea
how much she wishes
to forget how he makes her feel
because if she did
maybe they could be friends again
she hates the fact
that it will never be the same
and they can never go back
to being just friends

9:55 pm

i live in a generation
where people confuse love for lust
where people jump into relationships
based off of lies and abusing each other's trust

this generation is full of people
who idolize toxicity
they want a complicated love
one that lacks simplicity

i am not built for this generation’s
idea of love
because these men manipulate women
into believing that they'll never be enough

with that being said
i intend to save myself for my soulmate
and until then, i won't rush it
i will leave it up to fate

3:09 pm

and she left
despite being in love
it was the hardest thing
she'd ever do
but she knew it'd be even harder
watching the person she loved the most
fall out of love with her

3:11 pm

here i am
with my pencil in my hand
pouring my heart out
onto every single sheet of paper
in my notebook
hoping that these poems
will one day be read by you